AddMaths AddMaths AddMaths

Woke up early to do AddMaths.
Chatted with AimanakasliMy on msn abit.

A short snippet:

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Rain On Me . b l i n d e d b y t h e l i g h t | f o x y * 菊花台 says (9:44 AM):
Lalala I got fucking test at Terry's tomorrow
OMFG THAT SOUNDED SO WRONG HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA


šľĭмų - .A says (9:44 AM):
nice la
can i be tester?


Rain On Me . b l i n d e d b y t h e l i g h t | f o x y * 菊花台 says (9:45 AM):
Haha caN ALSO
You can test my.. functions.
; )


šľĭмų - .A says (9:45 AM):
WOOT LOl
LOl


Rain On Me . b l i n d e d b y t h e l i g h t | f o x y * 菊花台 says (9:46 AM):
And then, we can solve each other simultaneously
HAHAHAHAH


šľĭмų - .A says (9:46 AM):
good work chingy
LOl


Rain On Me . b l i n d e d b y t h e l i g h t | f o x y * 菊花台 says (9:46 AM):
LOLLL

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Mmm addmaths time.

Words Of Wisdom

You don't treat friends like they're items to gain or lose. This ain't business.


Sigh, Eugeney.
I'm glad I have you to help me put everything back into perspective.

:)

And Machi,
I'm sorry I say such terrible things to you all the time.
I'm sorry you have to be subjected to my annoying and frustrating temper all the time, and yet still put up with me.

I'll fix myself, owhkay?
I love youu.
.. I sound so lesbian; but yeah. :)

Doodles

Had a chat with a good, long time friend last night.
We talked about guys and their talent for whispering sweet nothings and knak for making promising promises so that we'd give them what they want.
All that talk reminded me of something that happened about 2 years ago..
It took so long for me to get over it,
and up til now I just can't help whining about it again sometimes.
I'm sure y'all have noticed hahaha.

***

Dear ___________,

I wonder if you meant what you said all those years ago.. I'm sure you wouldn't mean them if you said them now, but did you mean it when you said those words; those words which gave me a sense of security and comfort those 2 years ago? Did you mean it when you said I'd always have a place in your heart? Did you mean it when you said you'd never forget the times we had together? Did you mean it when you said no one would ever replace me?


Did you mean it when you said you loved me, then?

I fell for those words; those sweet nothings at the time. And if you would ever say those words again to me now, you know I'd walk straight back into your arms, don't you? But please, don't say them. because I know you'll only hurt me again.. whether intentionally or not.

Love always,
_______________

***

I'm fucking all my exams up.
My brain feels fried, maybe I should eat it for lunch. =.=
But doing the exams isn't the worst of it.
Its when the time comes to recieve my mchmcbccbknncnnmcm results.
No, that isn't the worst either.
The worst of the exams are when I have to tell my mum and dad about the mchmcbccbknncnnmcm results. :(
Sigh.
My dad's being so nice to me lately so much so the guilt in me is increasing..
Sigh.

Doodles.

At least I can have a peaceful sleep tonight.
Sleep is the most blissful feeling ever when in a time like this.

I'm HIIIGGGHHHHHH..

.. on caffeine.
Its a wonder what caffeine does.
It keeps me so wide awake.
But I'm gonna be a zombie and pretty much a monster when I walk into school tomorrow.
And after that, I'll crash and sleep for 6 hours straight.

This ain't healthy weiiy.

But desperate situations call for desperate measures.
I hope I can remember everything I shoved in tomorrow..
I've got 2 more chapters to go,
and I hope my body can handle it.

If I continue like this by the end of SPM I'd have to be sent to a drug rehab center.
MORAL OF THE STORY: Do not study last minute if you don't want to fail. Go ahead and study last minute if you don't care about failing.

Owhkay Lights and Sounds HEEERRREEE IIIII COOOOMMMMEEEEEE!

Wonderful

Econs II is over, I feel a little relieved.
Just a tad bit little.
No, just an incy wincy bit relieved.

Because now I have four chapters of experiments to read up on..
And I still have to continue studying Econs,
cos bloody paper I is tomorrow, and I REALLY REALLY don't wanna fail.
Heh.. no point saying that now, huh?
Haha.
I don't wanna fail Science either...




AND LIFE DOESN'T GET ANY BETTER THAN THIS.
Gah.

There's No Solution

I can't describe this feeling..
I know its just failing a subject, but somehow I feel like such a terrible failure.
I mean, compared to some others,
I'm actually not doing too bad..
and its not like its SPM or something.

Right?

Other than my entire holidays will be shrouded in guilt,
I won't be able to face my mum and dad with my head held high,
I'll feel as if there's somethin heavy pressed on my chest; suffocating me everytime I try to breath,
and that there will be something hovering over my shoulder and nagging me at the corners of my mind all the time..

... Its not all that bad.. right?
and yeah, its not like its SPM or anything...





... Right?





And besides, its only one subject.
No, two. Owh wait, no, three.



Owh God.

Heavy

I should be kept in isolation.
I don't fit in with anyone.
I don't feel weird.. yet normal isn't what I'm feeling either.
This void is eating me up.
So don't talk to me unless you wanna get snubbed.

BM was shitty.

Click to enlarge.

I'm gonna fail Econs tomorrow.

You just know.

Edit.
At 4:16pm



Dear __________, (insert whoever's name here)



My friend's been talking alot about finding someone to love and to hold.. and it got me thinking about you. I think about the times we had.. both good and bad. I'm sure there's no need for me to say them here, as you know what we went through. Because we did it together.

Sometimes I regret.. us. But most of the time.. I'm glad we happened. Remember the time when we were in _____________ (insert any place here)? We were tightly in each other's embraces, and five minutes later I was storming off in tears; feeling like a child. I was a child. You knew that, right?

And as I was standing there, above you, watching you play and flirt with another girl.. it broke my heart all over again. But I could do nothing. I only cried... and cried.. and cried. I looked at you, hoping you'd turn around and see my tears. But you didn't.. and it was then that I realized that I had to let go. Because in your eyes, I wasn't there anymore.

But yet I held on, held on right to the very end. In fact.. I am still holding on. But you are slowly slipping away.. and I can't feel your heart here anymore. I can't feel you here anymore.

Love always,
_____________
(insert your name or whoever's name here)

P/s: Wah gila sad ending. But happy too.. which made me cry a bloody river. :( No more Blood+ :( Haha get it? Bloody? Blood+? No? Nevermind.

***

I won't say much about Sejarah II,
I'll just show you a short dialogue I had with Pn. Goh after the Sejarah paper when she was collecting all our answer sheets.


Pn. Goh: Class, have you all finished?
Me: Yes teacher. I am finished.



I think that dialogue says much, really.
And now we all know that if you wear the colour of your lucky underwear it won't change anyfuckingthing. Gah.
Sigh. Next up, Econs II.
More stress gaaahhhh.

The last episode of Blood+ was released today,
and I am happy yet saddd.. no more Blood+ from now on. :(
I heard the ending was shitty though. =.=
I absolutely hate animes with nice startings and shitty endings.
Damn chat potong steam lorr.

Stress and lack of sleep has got me so agitated that I'm becoming extra snappy and mean.
Once again, I'm sorry if I scolded you/your mother/your father for no reason lah, k.
My head is constantly thumping and I have no time for sleep.
And I am such a whiner although that doesn't really have anything to do with what I'm talking about.



I'm in dire need of retail therapy..

I am lifeless.. Owh so lifeless.. Owh so stressed gah.

A little stress reliever.

You're Totally Sarcastic

You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny. Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it. And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.

How Sarcastic Are You?

Heh I am?

Your Quirk Factor: 55%

You're a pretty quirky person, but you're just normal enough to hide it. Congratulations - you've fooled other people into thinking you're just like them!

How Quirky Are You?

Hmm I guess I really am weird.

Your Taste in Music:

90's Rock: High Influence R&B: High Influence Alternative Rock: Medium Influence 80's R&B: Low Influence 80's Rock: Low Influence

How's Your Taste in Music?

You Are 20% Obsessive

You're less prone to obsessive thoughts than the rest of the world... While you do get hung up from time to time, you're excellent at clearing your mind.

How Obsessive Are You?

I think I should be MORE obsessive.
That way maybe I'd start studying and caring about exams earlier..

You Are 12% Cynical

Cynical? Not even close! If anything, you're a bit naive. Overall, you enjoy life and try not to be paranoid. Even if you've been burned before.

How Cynical Are You?

This is so true.
I'm one naive little girl..

Your Lucky Underwear is Green

You're a total go getter who will scrape and crawl to get to the top. And your lucky green underwear will help you get there without a struggle. A fast learner, you enjoy a good mental challenge - whether it's getting your law degree or running a successful business. Sometimes you push too hard to succeed, alienating friends and wearing yourself out in the process. If you want to reach your goals while still maintaining a full life, put on your green underpants. They'll help you slow down and enjoy life.

What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

LOL I guess I should wear my green panties for Sejarah II tomorrow.
Do you think wearing the matching green bra would help, too?

And wtf push too hard to suceed?
I don't see how studying like fuck at the last minute is pushing hard to suceed..
Do you?

You Are Somewhat Honest

You do tend to tell the truth a lot But you also stretch the truth on occasion You figure a little lie isn't a big deal As long as it doesn't hurt anyone too much!

How Honest Are You?

LOL somewhat honest!
Wth does that mean?

You Are 44% Brutally Honest

Honesty is important to you, but generally, you try not to be brutal about it. You'll sugar coat the truth when you need to... and tell a white lie when necessary.

How Brutally Honest Are You?

Gah fuck Sejarah lahh,
I'm going to sleep.

Somebody kill me NOW.

Bloody Sejarah is kiiiiiiiiilllllliiiiinnngggg mmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.





Sigh. These are one of those times when I wish paid attention when Ruminathan was blabbering infront so at least now I'd know a little of whats going on in Sejarah.

I'm fucked lah.



Haha damn disgusting I know.
Thats how much my hair has dropped in a week, and this doesn't count the ones at my showerroom drainer.
It looks like a frickin pussy.


I'm balding.

Breastfren

I am Machi's 'breastfren'.






I love you, too.
Now go study lah, bitch.

Hahahahahahahaha...

Its 1:12am in the morning, and I really should be doing something more productive.
But I can't seem to think of anything right now hmmm...

Owh yaaah. I was playing with my template abit..
and something went wrong I don't know what and I'll fix it later lah.
Thankfully I have a backup of the template..
just quite an old un-updated one la, so it needs some editting still.
So for now I'll just use this.

AddMaths II was shitty today, and I'm quite certain that I'm going to fail again.
English was.. as usual lah. Wrote a whole bunch of crap which I hope is interesting.

I should really go study Econs and Sejarah seeing as I don't wanna fail any of those subjects..
But I think I'll just post self-indulgent photos of myself instead.
I currently have 81 pictures in my Olympus, and 44 of them are of myself.
So I'll show you some lah.
I'm becoming like Machi.. haha.

I'm craving for Sprite.






I thought those two pictures were quite nice..
but now the first one seems damned weird looking,
and I think what Keegan said about me looking like the Ju Onn ghost in the second picture is affecting me because I'm starting to think the same thing.

My monthly dues just came so I'm a little more easily annoyed and agitated than usual.
So sorry lah, if I ter-scolded you for nothing.
I should really keep myself in check..


I'm balding.

DumDeeeDuuuuum

Heh.
I've a very strong feeling that I won't be partying without guilt this holidays..
AddMaths II is tomorrow, and I don't feel like practicing at all,
but hell everyone knows I have to, including myself.
Gah.

I wanna eat nice fattening fooooood. :(
Like McD's, Italiannies, CHILI'S, Bakerzin... etcetcetc.
I'm such a pig haha.

Well you can't blame me when I tell you that I have to eat leftovers all the time. :(
They don't taste that bad, actually not bad at all,
but sometimes I'd like to eat something fresh and carefully cooked for lunch.

Two-day-old curry.

I just hope it isn't spoilt..

***

LALALALALALALALALALALALA
I'M DONE FOOOORRRRRRRRRR LALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALA

Its Starting.

Its starting.
In about 11 hours, I'll be sitting for my first paper: Accounts II.

Click to enlarge.

Its gonna be a fucking long two weeks.

I love Jay Chou

I was and am suppose to be studying,
but ended up browsing the net for cool gadget-y phones, Jay Chou videos, anime forums, new anime releases, and trying to figure out how the hell to do per. susut nilai and per. hutang ragu in between.

Before I continue my mindless babbling,


ANYONE WANNA TEACH ME HOW TO DO ACCOUNTS?
I only need help for peruntukan susut nilai, pelupusan akaun, and per. hutang ragu.
*pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease*


Call me or sms me or leave a comment or email me!
Actually thats not all I need help in for accounts,
but those are the critical ones; the ones I have COMPLETELY no idea about.
The rest I think I can guess guess la.. sigh. =/


Yes, so back to my rubbish.
I am feeling so shitty now, but I bet you I'll be feeling even more shittier after I get back from Terry's.
I took his AddMaths paper II exam last Sunday,
and I'm getting the results back later during tuition.
The questions weren't that difficult; all of them were rather straightforward..
The only problem was me. I had not practiced and learned my basics well enough and so I brought this onto myself.. again.
SIGH. I am hopeless..

On a lighter note.. my baby's coming home today. :D
I'm gonna go pick him up later.

I've been blogging consistently for the pass few days,
and will continue to do so until the exam season ends.
Because this is the place where I write (more like type) out my guilt,
stress, confusions, wishes and needs to lighten the load on my shoulders abit.
Yalah, to menagih simpati abit.. haha.

And WTH? I just got a message from MTV PowerPack saying that Brad Pitt is going to replace Tom Cruise in the next Mission Impossible movie.
I like Brad Pitt and all.. but it'd just be weird.
I mean, I'm so used to watching Tom Cruise in MI movies,
and now he's gonna be replaced by Brad Pitt.
I thought it was gonna be like in the Bond movies,
where they had to replace Pierce Brosnan with this younger, youthful guy cos Pierce Brosnan was getting old.
But in this case,
Tom Cruise and Brad Pitt look around the same age so I don't see why they have to change the actors...

Weird.

Yoga Breaths

Edit.
at 6:14pm.





Gah. Nothing seems to be going in anymore.
And I don't exactly have a lot of time.
Was feeling so tired just now, but I couldn't sleep thanks to the caffeine.
It has made me restless sigh.

I alternated between studying and the piano today.
I seem to suddenly have the urge to play.. its weird,
cos when I had exams and was forced to practice, I stayed away from the piano as much as I could.
But now it seems as if I play it whenever I have the time and whenever no one is around.

I've been trying to play this piece by ear for the pass two days,
and I only managed to get the first part.
I couldn't hear the left hand clearly cos there were too many notes and my hearing skills aren't exactly that good.
And then suddenly I realized that it was a duet.
=.=
Its kinda silly when I come to think of it,
cos I got this song from an anim, and in the scene when this song appears is when the guy and girl are playing a duet on piano.
I was so blur I didn't even notice it. =.=

Anyway, listen to it and tell me if you know the title of the song. :)




I don't know why but I like tunes such as this one.
It keeps changing from major to minor, major to minor..
and its as if its telling a story.

Sejarah is killing me.
Accounts is killing me.
Addmaths is killing me.

I am dying. Sigh.
And the worst thing?
Its my own fault. :(

***

Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out.


Gah I'm feeling SO pissed off.
He bloody underestimates me and says shit to me as though I find that "joke" he made about me running of to watch tv or end up doing something else everytime I try to study funny all the time.
I shud've told him off when he first started saying it,
then maybe now I wouldn't be so damned pissed.
But not pissed enough to start using foul language, thankfully.
If not he would have gotten it full force.

At least he apologized la.
But at the moment I just can't bring myself to forgive this person who knows nothing about me and yet makes his own conclusions about me.

Yeah, you said you aren't making your own conclusions about me but the things you say to me SHOW that you are. Haven't you ever heard of the word subtlety? Or the phrase never judge a book by its cover? I think you have, but you just don't know how to practice it.

Owhkay, I feel bad for completely lashing out at you like that,
but I just could not stand it anymore.
I know I'm partially wrong for not correcting you and stopping you earlier on,
but you have and had no right to think that way about me.


I feel SO much better now.

This Love

Edit.
At 2:49pm



My grandmother died today.
Well, she isn't exactly my grandmother, but technically she is.. but yet is not.
But yeah la, biologically she is.

Her and I, we've never exactly been close..
Not like I am with my grandmother on my mum's side.
Although we've never exactly been close, I still feel as though I've lost something.
Its like, losing something not that important,
but yet you feel quite empty after losing it.
Yeah.. thats almost how I feel.
I don't really know how to describe this.. sensation. Feeling.

I'm glad she left with ease.
I don't think she suffered much before leaving.. I hope.

I'm sure she is in a better place now..
and in that place, she can walk, talk and eat whatever she wants without having to worry about her diabetes cos in that place she won't have diabetes or cancer or any other diseases.

I hope she's happy there.
I feel weird.

***

Its starting.
Its finally starting.
I'm finally beginning to feel the pressure.
Finally.

Thank God.


But that can only mean...

OMFG I ONLY HAVE 4 DAYS TO PRACTICE (more like learn everything) MY FRICKIN ACCOUNTS!
O.O

And afterthat I've got frickin' Addmaths II, and I am SO not porepared.
Sej II hits us on Monday.
I don't have enough time to study...
OMFG CRRAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.
Econs II on Wednesday.
Science II on Thursday.





Somebody kill me...

If you just walked away..

Edit (again)
At 7:42pm



Wow.
I just realized how many things I need to buy..
Can't wait for the holidays when I can party and shop shop shop!
:D:D

Top ten things that I need to buy.

1. Eyeliner (both liquid and pencil)
2. Pretty glittery lip gloss (any good brand recommendations? I'm so bored of Red Earth..)
3. New french manicure set
4. Hair remover (for my legs lah. I got manly legs.. and shoulders too.)
5. Clothes (which includes a/a few dress(es) from Urban&Co.)
6. Handbag(s)
7. Shoes
8. Sea Monkeys (I accidentally killed them the last time I bought them.. :/ )



Eih? Only 8 things I need.
Owhkaylah, its not exactly a need, but I want those things so much its become like a need.
Geddit? :D



Owhkay Top Ten Things I Want to buy:

1. Dresses from Blook
2. A car to drive next year or the year after
3. New shades
4. A new handphone
5. Shelves for my room
6. Acessories (Earrings, necklaces, rings... the list goes oooonnnn)
7. Those cute little glove socks you see in 1U
8. Heels/wedges from Aldo (I can't afford them haha)
9. Photo frames
10. Swimsuit (bikinis, monokinis, one-piece.. )



Hmmm yeaaahh.
The list is done, and now I only lack money.


Money... :(

***

Edit.
At 10:28am


I've got a mock addmaths test (Paper II) at Terry's later.
And as I was looking through those questions which I am unsure of,
I realized that I am going to fail that paper..
cos when I looked at those questions, I knew how to do nothing!
When I come out of Terry's later today I know I'm gonna be looking like my pet dog/relative or something died.
Heck.. I'm feeling that way now.

And the funny thing is, dropping addmaths is not an option.
And neither is failing.. but thats gonna happen anyway.


And you know whats the most guiltifying thing?
I'm not exactly feeling any pressure or stress..
In fact I'm quite chilling.

I'm done for, aren't I?
Owh fuck.
SOMEBODY KILLLLL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

* * *

When school started this year.
I knew I was in for a change.
But I underestimated the things I thought I would go through.
I thought I'd just be separated from a few of my friends..
But no, I got separated from everyone;
and was sent to a class with all the students there practically strangers to me.
'Cept for Mag lah, and Machi.
But at the time I thought Machi was one helluva weird person,
and didn't really like her.
I wasn't really close to Mag either.
And 9 months later..
We're like a family now.
A dysfunctional and damned fuckin' lazy family.
Almost everyone in my class is lazy.
Even our class teacher is lazy.
Pn. Farah, if you ever read this, I don't any offense. :)
Hehe. :D

Pn. Soo and her ^_^v

4 Merbau

Never in my life had I ever thought that I'd be in those pictures, with those people.
Now I know what people mean when they say life takes unexpected turns.
This isn't really that big a turn, but nevertheless, still a turn.

Owh wait, let me correct myself.
I wasn't sent there. I chose, to go there.
And suddenly this seems somehow fated..

Uhuh

Gah I broke a nail today.
:(

Something's terribly wrong with me.
The fact that my exams are nearing and I haven't started studying doesn't seem to pressure me..
And thats kinda worrying me.
And to think that during the recent midterm exams I had been stressed to the core.
And now I kinda don't care..
I mean, its not that I don't care, I just don't seem to be worrying about it like hell as I use to.

I don't really have anything to blog about,
so as usual, I'll just write whatever that pops into my head..

Owh fuck I think I should go do some addmath or study or something cos I have so much time and if I don't do anything with it I'll just be loaded with ALOT of guilt later on.
And while I'm typing this Machi's went to 1U.
=.=

Owhkaylah.. better do something productive and exam-related.
I don't like guilt very much.
I already have alot piled on me..


*


My uncle had been staying with us for the past two days,
Just now, when I woke up from my sleep, I noticed that the house was very quiet..
So I didn't bother, and just went into the bathroom.
And out of curiosity, just to see if my uincle was still here,
I opened the other door connected to my bathroom.
I saw that he'd left already.
And that meant that I was alone at home.. again.
I guess I've gotten used to having his presence around.
And now when he's gone.. I sort of feel lonely.
I was never particularly close to this uncle, we hardly even spoke.
I guess its the feeling I get nowadays when I'm in my empty home.

Sometimes I feel as the four walls I go home to are so cold and eerie...
I don't like being alone when I'm feeling so lonely.

Morning Rain..

Woke up to the smell of the rain today.
Its just rain.. no thunder, no lightning.
Just the way I like it.

Beyond All Blood

SO MANY NEW EPISODES, SO LITTLE TIME!
HOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWW?

I've got so much accounts to do summore..
Ahhh screw accounts la.



INNOCENT VENUS, BLOOD+, BLEACH, KAKASHI GAIDEN



HERE I COOOOOMMMMMMMEEEEEEE!


:D:D:D:D




Haha yes laa, I'm a freak.
But you know what? I DON'T CARE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

Fack I really am a freak. =.=

To be real.. It doesn't matter anyway.

Edit.
At 6:31am


Goooooooosssshhhhhhh I waannnaa goooo baccccckkkk tooooooo sleeeeeepppppppppp.
I went to sleep a zombie last night,
and I awoke this morning still a zombie.
My face is literally like this: =.=
My eyes can't open wider than a slit and my brain feels compressed.
Thinking about double Science and double bloody accounts afterthat is making my brain feel even more compressed,
so compressed that its beginning to liquify.
I hope I won't have to wake up at this ungodly hour when I get into college.
But somehow I think I will have to, due to transport problems..
GAAAAAAH.

I should get up from my chair and start packing my stuff but my ass just feels too heavy at the moment..
Owh dear its getting late.

Gah owhkay bye.



**



Suddenly had an urge to listen to something that I haven't listened to in a long long time.
Haha if you get what I mean.

I dug up my old cassettes (Yeah I used to listen to cassettes cos my mum wouldn't buy me cds haha) a few days ago,
and found one called Fantastic Females.
I read through the song list and noticed that I couldn't remember how some of them sounded like.
And then suddenly I saw, Sheryl Crow - My Favourite Mistake.
The title strummed a loud note.
I used to rewind and playback, rewind and playback that particular song til the lyrics were stuck in my head and I could sing/recite them by heart.
And even then, I'd still rewind and playback just to hear it again.

So anyway, when I saw the title of that song,
I went straight to my Ares to download it.
I had a vague memory of how it sounded like,
but I mostly just remembered that I used to like it alot.
I listened to it again.. its a great song.
Makes me imagine myself singing that on a bartop in hooker heels and a short dress hahaha.
I like Sheryl Crow's husky, but yet sweet voice.
And if I'm not wrong, she writes/co-writes most of her songs.

Listen to it. :)






Here are the lyrics for you to sing along if you want haha.

I woke up and called this morning
The tone of your voice was a warning
That you don't care for me anymore

I made up the bed we sleep in
I looked at the clock when you creep in
It's 6 a.m. and I'm alone

[Chorus:]
Did you know when you go
It's the perfect ending
To the bad day I was just beginning
When you go all I know is
You're my favorite mistake

Your friends are sorry for me
They watch you pretend to adore me
But I'm no fool to this game

Now here comes your secret lover
She'd be unlike any other
Until your guilt goes up in flames

[Chorus]

You're my favorite mistake

Well maybe nothin' lasts forever
Even when you stay together
I don't need forever after
It's your laughter won't let me go
So I'm holding on this way

Did you know, could you tell
You were the only one
That I ever loved
Now everything's so wrong

Did you see me walking by?
Did it ever make you cry?

You're my favorite mistake
You're my favorite mistake
You're my favorite mistake

There's this other song by Sheryl Crow which is REALLY good, too.
Maybe I'll post it up for your listening pleasure some time.

Sleepy time. I'm feeling like a zombie.

hg(x) = 3x , h[g(x)] = 3x ... fack it la.

Edit.
At 10.58pm


Gah. AddMaths is killing me.
Actually... I just can't seem to concentrate.
Its about a week and a half before exams start, and I know nothing of anything!
I see my future start to crumble around me...

I tried studying my Sej earlier on,
and I notice everytime I'm reading the facts all that goes around in my head is;
why the f*** do we have to study about the frickin Kerajaan Islam?
I mean, I ain't Muslim, yo.
If you make the Islam students study that, then so be it, because its the history of their religion.
Then why not make us Chinese study the history of Buddhism and Christianity and etcetc?
Why MUST we study about the dumb kerajaan Bani Umaiyah and what fucking not?

... I complain so much but yet I can't do anyting about it.
And at the end of the day, I'd still study the damned thing just to save my arse;
whether I accept it or not, willingly or not.

I'd still do it.
How contradictory..
GAH.

And then there's Science and Pn. Lee.
She keeps putting so much emphasis on the subject,
and earlier this year she kept urging (almost at the verge of forcing) us to join this Scientists Legion thingy.
She asked us, like, a few million times and kept telling us about the benefits and blablabla..
I felt like asking her,
If we really were into the whole Science thing,
we'd have chosen to go into Pure Science or SubScience instead of choosing the Arts stream.
What I'm trying to say is, we never wanted (Or maybe some of them didn't have a choice) to be scientists or doctors or Biochemists or whatever jobs that have to do with Science once we chose this stream.

I know this topic has got nothing to do with anything but I just need to rant and release my anger of not knowing how to do AddMaths a bit.
You know.. so I won't stab/drown/slit my wrist/shoot myself in the head/electrocute myself or something.
Blogging is a good form of releasing stress.
Maybe the government should recommend blogging to drug addicts who claimed to have taken drugs to "release stress".
Some of you might say that drug addicts can't even speak properly or whatever but not all drug addicts are uneducated people.
I say that because whenever someone says the words "drug addicts", the image that is imediately pictured in my mind (and I'm sure some of yous) is a bunch of skinny, Malay/Chinese, unhealthy looking men lying at a road side or hiding in a drain or something.

But not all drug addicts are people like that.

Many are teenagers, or rather the proper word is belia.
(I forgot the English word for it. If any of you know, please tell me.)
And even if they don't have a good grasp of whatever language they are using I don't think it really matters as long as they just write/type out their feelings and whatever is bothering them.
I think they'd feel much better if they did and perhaps would not have had to resort to poking needles into their elbows and wherever else drug addicts poke their needles.

Eih.. how did I suddenly start talking about drugs?
Owh yeah, you know Ne-Yo's new song?
I don't remember the title but the point is, is that I think he's very unoriginal,
cos this song sounds almost exactly like his other hit, ... owh shit I forgot the title also.

Owhkaylah, I think my stress has been fully released already.
Besides, my mum just called me down for dinner hahahahahhaa.
Food.. the perfect stress relief besides retail therapy.


K byebye!
Owh YEAH! the name of that song is So Sick.
I just remembered hahahahahaha.



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Hmm just finished my AddMath homework, so proud of myself haha.
But I haven't studied AT ALL.
Hahahahaha we all know where this is going hahahahahahaha...

Owhh yeah, we all know where the f*** this is going alrite.

And MSN's been screwed up all night.
SIGH. ITS A SIGN FROM GOD!
I should stop letting my MSN distract me and start doing something productive such as.. I don't know, STUDYING. MAYBE?

Yeaaah. So what am I doing blogging here..
Omfg I'd better go study. Don't want God to punish me by screwing up my template.
O.O

Freaky Shit..

Read this article weiy.
Some crazy PsychopathStalkerRapist!
What is the world coming to these days..

*shudders*


Owhkay, Karangan time.

Rum and Raisins

This is the 100th post written in this blog.
I started blogging (reluctantly) last year,
cos Dina forced me hahahaha.
She also got Steph and Jade and a few others to start blogging, too.
But now, I'm the only who updates frequently haha.
Dina's mostly busy, and the rest just lost interest.

Moving on. I was actually planning on not posting Part II anymore,
but due to a special request by Zac-Vin I'll post up the remaining pictures I have. :)
I have two videos to watch, too, so you'd have a better picture of what the atmosphere was like and such. :D
Make sure to watch the one with Jane! Haha.


Yeah, owhkay so..


Part II: The Bowling Alley

Guys and their games. =.=

Bobo looks so cute here :D

Yienny made this for Cheryl.
On it there are pictures, and alot of words portraying many of the times they've had together..
I think this is the sweetest present you can give anyone.
Sweet memories archived nicely.










We then brought the Birthday girl in for her 2nd surprise:

Birthday Girl



Birthday Girl

Jane after her strike :D

I likey her top.

Haha Nigel.

The upper section of the Bowling Alley

Jane says she likes his backview.
She finds it hooootttt. :D
Lets zoom in abit.

Nah, Jane. For you.

And we have a happy Jane. :D

YES BABEY EPISODE 22!
Haha yeah anyway.











































And then MayMay and I decided to have a little camwhore session..

SMILE :D:D

Huh whats up there.. ?

Er.. the finger?

Sleepy sleeppyy..

I don't know what we were trying to do

Lala ^-^V

Japanese lala ^-^v

Cheryl opening her presents

And last but not least,
Jane's hotdog video. :D
Watch it!





And thats all the pictures (and videos) I have for today. :D
And yeah, you see the comment button below?
Click it! and then leave a comment!
It would make my day. :D:D



Loves.