The Voice Within

Just came back from school.
Sigh. Long, LONG day.
I forgot to bring ALL of my accounts books today.
So while everyone was hurrying to finish, I was reading newspaper.
And laughing at them.

HAHA.

Then I realized that I'd have to go to school tomorrow to pass it up.
There's merentas desa tomorrow and I think merentas desa is a completely pointless event that does not concern me in the least so I normally just skip it.
But I have to go tomorrow, to hand up my freakin' books or Pn. Soo will fuck me upside down ew.
And I also realized that, I have no ones book to copy, cos they all passed it up.

HAHA.


... great. Just GREAT.

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There were the new BOD nominations for DJ's Leo Club today.
Everyone had to be in uniform, and careless me lost my skirt.
So I turned up at the meeting with black pants.
Yen Vern said black pants can be worn as uniform too, owhkay!
But unfortunately that didn't stop me from looking like a total dope.

Anyways, I got nominated for four posts.
Community Service Dir., I.U. Dir., Membership Dir. and Funding Dir.
I was one of the nominees for all those because Emelia, Lixian and Melinda were bored and started nominating me for everything until the thrill of playing around eventually faded.
Yes. And you wanna know what would be the funniest thing?
I get nominated for four posts, and in the end get nothing.
Yes. That WOULD be funny.

HAHA.

... omfg no.

Perfect Situation

I've been doing last minute filling form for the Youth Exchange program.
Damn. I realized that my family hasn't taken a family picture in YEARS.
Years as in, the last picture we took together was when I was 5.
Yes. So I had to stick on an old photo.
Argh. That lessens my chances even more considering I can't host. :(
But still I'm gonna try. Perhaps a miracle will occur and I'll get to go.
Yea, a miracle. A bloody mutha fuckin miracle.
Sigh.

I'm so stressed and damned May Yi's not online.
Gah, where'd that biatch go when I need her. :(

Have a little faith.

They can say anything they want to say
Try to bring me down
But I will not allow
Anyone to succeed
Hanging clouds over me
And they can try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams


'Cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me
From me

They can do anything they want to you
lf you let them in
But they won't ever win
If you cling to your pride
And just push them aside
See
I have learned there's an inner peace I own
Something in my soul
That they cannot possess
So I won't be afraid
And darkness will fade

'Cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me

No
They can't take this
Precious love
l'll always have inside me
Certainly the Lord will guide me
Where I need to go

They can say anything they want to say
Try to break me down
But 1 won't face the ground
I will rise steadily
Sailing out of their reach

Oh Lord
They do try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's a light in me that shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me
From me.

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The past few days have been long, and boring.
I couldn't tell my mum about my results, she'd just be so dissapointed.
I swear I was really scared and distraught; I just didn't wanna see her dissapointed.
Well, thankfully she didn't ask exactly what I got. I just told her I didn't fail anything other than Econs.
Hopefully I didn't.

Sigh. May Yi's all happy happy with her latest guy, Mr. Ha Chee aka Chee Ho.
They're both happy happy together.
She can't stop talking about him and how she's never felt this way about any other guy before, and how great he is and blablabla.
Yeayea I know I sound bitter, but heck. You can't blame me!
I'm all sad and lonely (though I'm not looking for anyone) and she's so deliriously and obliviously happy.
There was this post I read from Xiaxue's blog dated March 21st.


I quote Xiaxue:

"I hated the girls (or in my case guys also) who would force their little happy relationship stories on me, and I think inside their shivelled little pink hearts they all were having great fun mocking me and seeing me convulse and pulsate vomit while I feigned interest in their love lives." Unquote.


Owhkaylarh, not so bad lar. I don't always feign interest, just at certain times when I'm feeling super emo and all.
I know they're happy and stuff and they wanna share their happiness, but seriously.
Some people just don't wanna know! Owhkay?
I know I'm fat and no one wants me. :(

Hahhahah May Yi hunny, this is not meant for you. I like listening to you and Chee Ho's love stories. :)
And this also isn't meant for Dina or Xinhui or Jade.
Or any of my best buddies. I feel enormously happy for all of you; because you all deserve it after so long waiting and searching.
But I admitt, I feel just a teensyweensy bit envious sometimes.
Owh well, which single female wouldn't?
Even those who claim that they're completely happy and contented being single, they are still envious.
Even just a very very little bit.

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I'm so lazy to start my post on China II.
There's just so many photos and all. And its not like I'm blogging for money.
And its also not like anyone reads my blog.
Hahhahahaha, pathetic ain't I?
Anyways, blogging is just to fill time for me, and also to record some of my happy moments, and also many, many sad ones.
I know most of you who read my blog, don't actually read it but just look at the pictures.
Ah well, its not like what I write is that interesting anyways. :(
But if you did read it, comment lah!
I wanna know what you think. :)

I'm trying to end this love affair.

Sigh. Everything's just so screwed.
I'm gonna dissapoint my mum so badly today. I don't wana tell her, but she'll ask.
I swear I'll do better for my midterm! I seriously promise.
I wana cry right now, just thinking of the look on her face.
And the worst part: I'll deserve every bit of torture and pain that its gonna inflict on my dignity, and my worst of all, my heart.
My mum will nag, and she'll scold. But worst of all, she'll be so dissapointed.
And I dissapointed her.

I feel terrible right now.

I went out with Ming Kuan just now, and May Yi and her new guy, Chee Ho, tagged along too.
So it was sorta a double date. Hahahhahha. It was fun. But..
I feel so guilty now.. I shud not deserve to have so much fun when I just DON'T deserve it.
I was feeling so pei in school during the first few periods.
I kena dc-ed, and I put up an act like I was damned happy, when inside, I was actually hurting a whole lot.
I was hurting not because I got dc-ed, actually getting dc-ed is a pretty good thing considering I got to skip Pn. Soo's class.
I was hurting because I knew I had to come back and tell my mum my terrible results,
and face the music. Terrible music, I might add.
I know I looked really happy and fine.
I was fine, but not happy. Not at all.



It was a facade.

China I

Owhkay. Here's my China post. I was there for about 7 days, and there's so much to write.
So I'll post the trip up in parts; and this is part I.

Here we goooooo!

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Woke up at about 4:30am to get ready to go to the airport.
After reaching the airport, meeting up with my mum's friends including Huey-Wei (gonna be typed as Wei for short) and her mum, and the tour guide, we headed off to checkin the baggages and all those other hassling stuff you hafta do to get outta the damned country.






I've got mah passport, I've got mah-self. All ready to go to China!



Wei's lil bro and her dad are so sweet. :)


After passing the imigrations, we had to take the airport train to the waiting rooms to wait for our boarding time.
While waiting, Wei took out her copy of Anak Laut and her excercise book along with her stationaries to do her homework.
Omfg weih. =.= Lolll.
But after awhile, she couldn't get any work done. Heeeheeee.XD
Who can get work done when your long holiday is about to start??
Only those gila fellars la, that is. =P
We ended up taking pictures together. Hahahhahahhaha.
We took like, 10 pictures of the two of us, but I'm just gonna post the nicest one up cos there are SO many other pictures to post up and I'm just so freakin' lazy. =P

Wei and I

The nicest photo we took at the waiting room.

Mummy, Wei and her mum.

After waiting about 20 minutes, we boarded.
We flew through Thai Airways. It was a transit flight, so we flew to Bangkok, then had a connecting flight to KunMing, China.
We had breakfast on the plane. Everybody says that plane food sucks.
But I personally, like plane food. Hehehe XD
Our flight was about an hour and 45 minutes. There was this really pretty Thai airhostess serving us.
I tried to get a picture of her, but didn't manage to get a close shot. :(
I'm a lousy photographer. =P





Wei got window seat. :)




I didn't get window seat.
I might be 16 years old already, but deep inside I'm still a child. So I pouted. *pouts*
=P



It doesn't look that yummy, but it is. *mmmm*






The gave us pretty orchids when we got off the plane. :)


We then entered Bangkok International Airport.
We went straight to the waiting rooms for our transit flight to KunMing.
So, wait wait wait. And what do I do to kill boredom? Take pictures lah!
Hahhahahha. After quite sometime we boarded another Thai airplane and off off off we flew to KunMing! Had more airplane food, too. For lunch.









My mum's friends said that she looks like the older version of the woman on the plastic bag.
I don't think so though.



Wei didn't get the window seat this time!
Bahahahahahahahhahaha. >=P
Lol.





But I did. Heeheehee. XD XD
But Wei exchanged seats with my mum so she sort of got the window seat too.
Owh well. :)



Happy happy Wei Wei. :)







New shades. ;)
I look cool, rightt?




Never knew duck curry could taste this good.
Absolutely yumyum.




They gave us chocolate cake-mousse tooo!

Yummy duck curry + sumptuous chocolate cake-mousse = happy Ching!

The city of Bangkok from above.


We arrived at KunMing at approx. 3pm.
The bus came to pick us up along with our local KunMing tour guide.
We went sight-seeing straight away. I forgot what the first place we visited was called though.
It was some lake lar. Lolololol.
I took some random shots of the city of KunMing while in the bus too.



Our tour leader, Alexis. :)
A really sweet woman.






Stylish lady on a scooter.

The lake!

This lake is somewhat a place for lovers. There are couples everywhere.
If you look closely, in some of my photos you can find couples kissing or making out.
Sigh. I'm so envious. :(





There was so many of these cute benches with animals at the sides.
But I only got a picture of the piggie one.
There were live ducks quacking around tooooo!
But after looking at them awhile, I start to think of how good they'd taste roasted.
Owh god, I'm such a saddist. If thats the proper word to describe my thoughts.







We saw this extremely adorable little boy!

Hai Tang Shu

Duckiess!

Wei and I

OMFG. Do you see that tummyyy????

AHHHHHHH.


Sigh. Lets move on.
After visiting the lake, we went to this old military training sight.
It was more of a lawatan sambil belajar sejarah visit, this one.
And as usual, I don't listen when they're telling the history, well maybe just vaguely..
*smiles sheepishly*
After awhile, it began to rain. So Wei and I hid under my pink panther umbrella. :)





That guy on the lefthand side telling us the history of the long march was our KunMing local guide. He's a reallly cute fellar, especially when he speaks. :)




Afterthat, we went for dinner at a restaurant.
The food was d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s. =D











This is a picture of the fish after I was done with it. I practically ate the whole thing since no one liked the fish.
Good for me. Less men more share.
Hehehehe. I'm a greedy biatch. I admitt. =P
Anyway, those were the few dishes I really liked. The rest I just didn't bother taking pictures of cos I was too hungry to do anything but eat gelojoh-ly.
Hahhahahahha.

And that concludes the first day of my trip to China.
Finalllllllyyyyy. It was such a hectic day.
Even more tedious to blog about it especially when Blogger's being a bitch.
=P
I spent 2 hours on this post, owhkay!
If this isn't hardwork, I don't know what is.

I need to rest now, so tireeeddd!
Byebye people. :)

Fucka.

Shit weih.
Today's starting out so terribly.
I wanted to go to school, but overslept. Explains why I'm blogging at this hour.
So nevermind, I smsed MY and told her that I'm not coming.
She told me that its good that I'm not coming, cos she didn't think I'd like to know my results.
Well, she was right. I failed almost everything.
Well not everything la, just addmaths, but I'll still pass cos sweet Pn. Goh is gonna give me markah kasihan.
The rest.. I didn't officially fail. But to me, those marks are just as bad as failing.
I'm not gonna tell anyone what those marks are, so don't even bother asking me. I'm feeling SO stupid now.

GOD, I AM stupid.

The marks tell it all. I mean, besides the fact that I didn't study.
But addmaths.. I practiced SO hard for one whole bloody night! I guess I thought I cud pull it off.

I'm so freakin' pei now.
Cleared things up with Mr. Old Man yesterday. We talked about stuff between us, and whether we both had a "thing" between us.
I won't tell you how it went, but to summarize it, he doesn't think that there's anything between us.
Ah well. What did I expect?


='(

Love China, hate their public toilets. Miss miss Old Man. :)

I'm Baaaacccccckkkkkkkk peeeooppllleee!!
Missseeeddd meeeeee??
Well I sure missed everyone.
Everyone, especially Mr. Old Man. :)
And Eugeney toooo. Maybe its cos the day before I left I was out with Eugeney. :(
I missed May Yi toooo! Damn, that bitch is starting to grow on me. XD
And everyone else like Dina, and and.. Er, only Dina.
Hahahhahahahhaha I'm kidddiiinnngggg! I've missed EVERYYOONNEEE!
And that means you, you, YOU, and you and you and youuuu!
I'm so hyper now, eventhough its been a pretty hectic day. Must be the 3 packets of sugar I put into my coffee on the way back from Bangkok transit. XD

I'll be posting up stuff 'bout my China trip later onnn! Its suuuuper late now, and I'm kinda tired, AND I have to go to school tomorrow. =/=/
I'm off to sms Mr. Old Man now, then go wash up and go to bed.
So, til tomorrrroooowwwwww,

Zai jiann!!


Lovelovveee*kissesss. :)

I'm off to China yo!

Its about 5am now, and I can hear my mum screaming dowanstairs for me to hurry up.
So, I guess I'll be blogging next Monday. Hopefully.
Hahahahaha.
Omfg. This reminds me of Final Destination. Freeaaakkkyy.
Anyways,

Byebye Malaysia. :)


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HELLO CHINA!

Im gonna shower now, so don't peep! =P
Hahahahah. Byebye people. :)

Eugeneeeyyy! :)

Just a short post today.
I hafta go and pack cos I'm flying to China tomorrow morning.
Yippeeeee! XD

I've been going out for three days in a row.
I promised myself, that I was gonna stay home today and pack my stuff for tomorrow.
But in the end.. I went to the Curve and the other connecting places.
Hahhahahhaha.
I actually have a reson for going out today,
and the reason is that

Eugeney came baccckkkkkk!!

I love Eugeney. :)
One of my close friends who went to Singapore to study. I'm proud to say he was one of the thirteen chosen Malaysians for the ASEAN scholarship. *beams*

He was suppose to come back in June and December only, but his mum decided that she wanted to see him, so he took a bus back yesterday. XD
I was so so sooooooo surprised and glad when I saw the word "paedophile" on my handphone screen yesterday night.
Gosh, it was just yesterday that I realized how much I've missed him.

So we went out today, since I was flying to China tomorrow.
He'd be going back to The Land of The Kiasu (its just a joke, Singaporeans if you're reading this. =P) this coming Saturday, and I'll only be back on the following Monday.
We went to The Curve, since I wanted to get a top from PDI and excahnge my pants I bought on Friday.

He still looks the same, but taller and he's more buff now.
Sexier. Hahahahahaha.
But he's still the same old Eugeney I used to know and love, and still love. He hasn't changed one bit.
After meeting up, we went to the weekend market (if you can call it that) outside The Curve.
Its not exactly a market lar. Its those little stalls selling things outside on the restaurant street.
I went looking around for nice gold handbags and accesories, the usual.
While Eugene did what he did best, and that was holding my handbag, and giving me his opinion. :)
After walking the whole street, we adjourned to Coffee Bean for a drink.

I ordered my new favourite, which was the Iceblended Pure Chocolate. (thanks to Debra =P)
And Eugeney ordered Berry'd treasure. Damn cool right, the name? XD
After getting my drink, we saw this section where you can add flavour to your drink.
There was Chocolate, Vanilla, Cinammon, and Nutmeg; all in powder form.
I proceeded to add some chocolate into my drink, and then suddenly I decided,
Why not just add in abit of everything?
Hahhahahah, so I did.
There was soooo much powder (thanks to Eugeney *shakes head*) that when I was stirring the drink, it started to clump. =.=
Quite funny. Loll.
Eugene did the same thing with his drink too. Ahahahhaha.



Hahhahaha ewww.






He didn't wanna let me take pictures. =P
So I forcefully started snapping..

Retarded. =P

.. and this was how it turned out.
Hahahahaha. The wrath of HweeChinngggg!

He was explaining to me why I shouldn't be taking pictures of him.
Hahahhaha, damn funny.






After Coffee Bean, we headed for Ikano. Went straight to PDI to get my top.
But as usual, I saw some other nice clothes and began picking them out. In the end I had 5 pieces of clothing to try.
So off we went to the dressing room to try try try clothes.
But in the end I only bought the top that I wanted to buy and this other top which I thought looked pretty cool although I didn't try it.
Hahahahaha. I bought it without trying, it was only RM15!
I thought what the heck lar. Hehe. XD XD

Afterthat we went to Lilic to change my pants, then back to the Curve.
I went to the market again, cos I wanted to get this scarve I saw.
Saw so many GORGEOUS golden earrings, but they were all so expensive. :(
The one I REAALLLYY liked was RM34.50 after discount. Ahhhhhh. So I didn't get it.. I wish I brought my mom with me. Gah. Owh well. =/
I wanted to take a picture of it too, but I didn't think the stallkeeper would allow me to.
Then we went to Lan Kwai Fong to grab a bite to eat.
Eugeney paid for my food. :)
I forgot to take pictures of the food though, so no pictures here 'cept the ones I took with him or took of him.



Lol, Freaky rite?





After eating we went walking around.
Went to Giordano to look for pants for Eugeney. He didn't find any he liked, so he didn't buy any.
Afterthat nothing interesting happened, just walking around, talking..
Until I saw what I think to me is the saddest place on earth.

FOOD JUNCTION

Seriously so sad.
The only people there were the workers.
When we walked past, Eugene did the "burung hantu" sounds. And all the workers turned and looked at us.
Super embarassing. Loll.

Ah, random pictures from todaaayyyy!







I'm off to start packing now.
Til next week, toodles! XD