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b l i n d e d b y t h e l i g h t * f o x y | Ignorance says:
Sigh don ttalk abou tit edi

b l i n d e d b y t h e l i g h t * f o x y | Ignorance says:
something's wrong with my typing

may yi =] says:
tlk bout tits?

may yi =] says:
i din say we're tlking bout tits

may yi =] says:
AHHAHA

b l i n d e d b y t h e l i g h t * f o x y | Ignorance says:
That's why

may yi =] says:
aiyer



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This post is funny, because I'm so angry... I'm tired.


This post is funny, because I'm actually supposed to study, but I'm here typing this post instead.


This post is funny, because I say it is.


This post is funny, because I'm laughing. Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.


This post is funny, because I actually have nothing to write.


This post is funny, because if you have actually read up till here, you are seriously damn lifeless or you have a crush on me.


This post is funny, because I know you have a crush on me. Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.


This post is funny, because I never thought I could be so pissed off in my life.


This post is funny, because it is in fact, not funny at all.




But angry. Very, very angry.

The anger in my chest is threatening to engulf me in flames

I swear to God, HE IS INSUFFERABLE.
My Dad, not God.

He dares to give me his crap when I didn't mean to let him know so late!
And while I was trying to explain to him, he starts saying things like, "My time is very precious you know!" and then he fucking put the phone down on me.
HE PUT THE PHONE DOWN ON ME.

And what precious time? HE JUST WANTS TO WATCH HIS FUCKING TV.
ARRGHHSDLFKDZM ;SDFHKDZFNVLDZKFGLGDFK MAAHAAAI KNNCCBMCHCNN I AM SO FUCKING PISSED OFF.

So when I reached the door, he still looked pissed and asked me in a gruff tone when did I hear abt it, and I answered that when I was abt to call him he called me first.
Then continued my explanation from before he put the phone down on me in an equally gruff manner.

Then because he can't let his anger out at me, he calls my mother to let it out on her.
From what my mom said to me I'm guessing he told her that I showed him my sour face when I came back.
MY GOD, HE HAD THE CHEEK TO SAY THAT WHEN HE DID IT TO ME FIRST?
Well Dad, I was just giving you a taste of your own medicine.
I am my father's daughter, which means I DON'T GET STEPPED ON AND I DON'T ACCEPT SHIT THROWN AT ME WITHOUT GIVING IT BACK.
OPEN YOUR EYES, YOU SCHIZOPHRENIC OLD MAN!

He doesn't like sending me around, because it intervenes with his tv time.
He watches TV 60 percent of the fucking day.


Well Dad, here's what I have to say to you.

You don't like sending me around? TOO FUCKING BAD.
YOU AND MUMMY WOULDN'T GIVE ME MY LICENSE, SO YOU HAVE TO BARE WITH IT.
YOU ARE ALWAYS THE ONE WITH THE MOST TIME, SO YOU HAVE TO BARE WITH IT.
AND YOU ARE THE ONE WHO FUCKING BROUGHT ME INTO THIS WORLD AND SO, YOU. HAVE. TO . BARE. WITH. IT.
Even if it means missing out on a little of your tv time, or your golf time.
You do too much of both anyway.
No, he won't miss out on his tv time, he has the fucking astro max which enables him to record his programmes, AND YET, he refuses to DO HIS DUTY.
The reason why I ask him to send me instead of getting my transport lady to do it is so we can save on a bit of money. AND HE GIVES ME THIS CRAP.
WELL HE CAN HAVE IT BACK.

HEY ASSHOLE, you always told me that people don't like going to work, but they have to anyway.
SIMILAR SITUATION, EINSTEIN.
YOU DON'T LIKE SENDING ME AROUND? BUT YOU HAVE TO ANYWAY.

Bloody self centered petulant child.


Haha I'm writing it here cos obviously I can't say it to his face.
I would, but then I'd kill him because his heart can't take it.
And I can't have that on my conscience.

I am so angry my blood is rushing to my head and making my eyes bloodshot.
Kinda like him right now downstairs ha ha ha...

I swear if he brings this up again I am going to give it to him.
Children need to be taught.

He says all the right things, at exactly the right time. But he means nothing to you and you don't know why.

Edit.
7.07pm


This is gay.
I can't seem to just sit down, and fuh-rick-in STUDY!
I get distracted SO easily. =/
Not to mention that I also get disheartened easily.
Like I just spent a half hour looking for the modal akhir and no matter what I add or subtract the answer is never correct!
A;SLDKS;F;SALDFLK;S;LASK';A'DFLJK;LDFLKFL;SDZK MAAAHAAAIIII.

I hate accounts la.... I seriously... omgggggggg.

I swear to the heavens above I am not gonna have anything to do with accounts after SPM.
Fuck weiy, I'd rather take history as a subject uring my A levels next year than fucken accounts GAH!


I want to cry.



***

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Found this at Sam's blog.
Well, at least I wasn't wrong about what I want to major in later on.

Hmm.. performing arts... Haha.

Pointless

Another early morning whiny post.

Why the fuck is the government making us do Moral projects?
This project is a total LIE!
How many of us actually do the stuff we write, no, COPIED/MADE UP in our dumb tugasan harians and kerja amals??

I do none of those I've written I assure you.
Talk about teaching the youngsters to lie and robbing them of their creativity AND wasting time money, paper and ink ALL AT THE SAME TIME!

And I hate the fact that even though I know this is a waste of time and it does nothing to amuse me and so I should not waste my time doing this just for a stupid grade for my SPM when it doesn't make me any more morally righteous than I am now; but yet...



Sigh. Assed education system. Led by assed people. =.=

I don't know.

Edit.
at 9:02pm




She was woken from a deep sleep by a pounding at the door.

"Girl, get up! We're leaving now."

Groggily she looked around, her right hand reached for the silver antique clock on her bedside table. The time showed 5pm.

"Its still so early.." she muttered to herself.

She lay back down for a few minutes, waiting for the grogginess to fade.
Getting up a short while later, she heded to the bathroom to take a shower.

"Hurry up! I'm waiting!"

She heard her father bellow from downstairs, and she hurried.
2 minutes later he bellowed again.
She was getting very annoyed.

She stomped down the stairs and into the car.

"Are you angry at me?" her father asked impatiently.
"No, I'm not." answered she with cool indifference.
"Get out of the car."

She didn't budge.

"GET OUT OF THE CAR!"

She still didn't budge.
He got into the car and put the gear into reverse.

"There can only be one tiger on the mountain. And that is ME. No matter what you say, I am STILL the man of this family. Your mother is saving up to send you overseas in the near future, I say if you're going to keep this attitude you won't be able to survive there." he lectured

She kept quiet.
Her heart felt too heavy, her mind was reeling, her head was pounding.

"I am not your slave. I have to work, too, you know? And after work I have to come back and drive you to your tuitions. I have enough to handle in one day." he continued

"I didn't ask you to send me. Mum did." She retorted in return.

"YOU KEEP ANSWERING BACK! F*** YOU, YOU THINK YOU'RE SO BIG? YOU ARE STILL MY DAUGHTER AND I AM YOUR FATHER I DESERVE A LITTLE RESPECT!"

She didn't say a word.

"I had a bad day today. Had to attend a fierce meeting and ended up arguing with everyone. I am not in a good mood so don't show me your sour face."

She felt everything from earlier on in the day bubble up to the surface.
All those strong emotions; dissapointment, self-directed anger and uncried tears just blew up in her face.
She began sobbing hard and tears rolling down her cheeks.

"I'm sorry, owhkay? I got carried away. I'm having a bad day, too, you know?? Think about me for once.." She said in between choked sobs.

"Fine, at least you apologize. I'll accept that. Whats wrong now?" he allowed

"I'm never good enough for anyone or anything. I never get what I want, never. Good things don't seem to ever happen to me. I really wanted it.." she continued, still choking on her sobs

"You know this is what life is. Shit happens all the time." he said in his usual rough voice.

And for once, they agreed.

"I'm sorry, dad, owhkay?"



When inside, one of her good friends remarked,

"You look pretty when you cry. And I haven't seen you cry in awhile, so that means you haven't looked pretty in awhile. HAHAHA."

And she laughed through her tears.



p/s: My mom has finally agreed to let me get my driver's license. THANK YOU, LORD. And mom. :)




***




I hate saying that phrase.
I don't know.

But I seem to be saying it very often lately.
When I speak with friends or teachers, when I monologue to myself.
I don't know.

The reason why I hate that phrase so much is because I hate not knowing things.
I hate being asked a question I cannot answer.
I hate blowing things up, cos I know that when I ask myself what happened, the answer will be obvious:
I don't know.


And the real reason why I hate that phrase so much?
Is because in actual fact, I know that I know.








I just don't want to admitt it to myself.

Hah!

Talk about feeling extremely annoyed.
Xanga's not working so I'll just do it here.






Wtf I mean first I said I wanted to borrow it and you said owhkay then when I call you up to tell you that Ima go collect it you say that you wanna wear it too I mean like, you already agreed to lend it to me and now you suddenly decide that you wanna wear it hell yeah I know its only about clothes but it doesn't annoy me any less "I haven't thought about what I wanted to wear yet ma, that time" is what you said sounding utterly unrepenting I was so damned annoyed and at the brink of losing my temper but I thought gah forget about it its only a skirt and borrowed the other one instead and then just now I was really bored so I went to see if you posted anything up and yeah you did you posted up pics of your NYE outing and it was nice to read and all until I realized that you DIDN'T wear the frickin' skirt and I totally lost it and decided to call you up to give you a piece of my bloody mind and then I realized that I'd woken you so I thought whatever since I woke you up its just as good as yelling at you so I didn't and you said your mom and dad wouldn't let you wear it out that night and that made me even MORE pissed cos I couldn't blame you because it was your bloody mom's fault now I feel kinda guilty for getting pissed at you cos it wasn't exactly your fault but I guess I should've just lost my temper earlier on and insisted on taking that skirt when you told me you wanted to wear it even after promising to lend it to me then I wouldn't be so annoyed about it now but if I had done that I'd be feeling kinda guilty and I don't like that emotion any more than I like feeling annoyed and angry owh dear this is such a conflict of emotions I guess this is how life plays tricks on you sometimes just to irritate you and if you're a something with feelings doing this to me I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY GAH eat my shit whoever you are grrr.







Mmm. That felt good.
I wouldn't be bloody publicizing this bloody fierce emotion to the bloody world if only bloody xanga was bloody working.

I'm not angry at anyone, don't get me wrong.
Wtf am I talking about I am angry lah, but not entirely at her.
I'm just letting off some steam through ranting about it rather than letting it out on the person herself when she technically didn't do anything wrong.
In the first scenario, sort of la, like when she promised it to me and then decided that she wanted to wear it too. I know its a small matter la, but its still a broken promise.
Damn pissed off lor, at first.
Thankfully my better judgement took over at the time, and I held my tongue.

Well, thats that. NYE is over already anyway.
Pictures will be up as soon as I can access bloody photobucket.

Grrrrrrrrr!

I am feeling SO annoyed right now.



I needed to go to 1U to get my mascara from Jusco cos I have 50bucks Jusco vouchers so I had to get my mascara from Jusco and nowhere else and I called all my normal buddies to ask if they could come to 1U with me to get my mascara and maybe just hang out for awhile like go at 12pm and come back at 4pm but everyone couldn't go I asked Machi and she said "you know I can't go out on Sundays" so I was like owhkay nevermind then and then I asked PikYie and she said she couldn't either I should've asked Dina but I just figured that she'd be busy or something damn I should've asked her I asked Jade but she said she'd be in Malacca and was only coming back at around 4 something then I was gonna ask Eugeney but I don't think he'd wanna so yeah and then like at 1:30pm Machi msges me on MSN saying that she was going to 1U and I was like wtf I mean you said you couldn't go out on Sundays and now you're going to 1U to meet Jilian but I guess its cos your mum suddenly wanted to go to 1U and you just tagged along and decided to tell Jilian to meet you there instead of calling me you did msg me on MSN yeah but you know I'm not always infront of the com you could've had the heart to have called me or something but nevermind I guess its just my luck to have lost my bloody mascara and also my bad luck to have such a .. nevermind anyway this isn't all about the mascara I'm just feeling a bit pissed and helluva annoyed because I feel as if I'm being ditched so yeah owh wait how did my ramblings get sidetracked to Machi ditching me must be because I'm about to pull out the hair from my head if I don't type this out somewhere I was gonna type out all this shit in my other blog but I guessed what the heck why backstab my bestfriend I'll just post it up on my public blog uhuh so yeah and I'm gonna go pack my stuff now its gonna be a long night so byebye.






Owh yeah.
Can anyone borrow me their mascara? :(



p/s: Merry Christmas everyone! :):) Go get drunk.

Way fucking away.

I was typing this post just now and I was almost done with it already when suddenly the whole fucking screen went fucking blue and I caught a glimpse of the words "system", "shutdown" and "error" before the whole fucking thing went completely blank.

I am WAY beyond annoyed now.
I am so fucking annoyed I will kill whoever who dares to annoy me further.

The whiny post I was typing out just now was just a small recap of my thoughts and annoyance but now Im typing to release my fucking stress from feeling this ultimate surge of annoyanc and did I mention this fucking keybaord is so fucking unpleasant to type on and that fucking popups keep coming out as I typed in the other post earlier before this retard of a fucking computer shut down on me owh wait, you guys don't know because the post isn't there because it shut down. =.=

Gah fuck it I am so annoyed now.
Grrrr. I miss my computer which has no lags, no goddamned fucking popups and my keybaord which isn't stubborn like this shit old one. GRRRRR.

The heat is making everything even worse.
I can feel sweat rolling down the valley of my modest mountains every 5 minutes.
Owhkay lah, I exagerrated. Every 20 minutes.

My face constantly has a layer of sebum on the surface no matter how often I blot,
and there's sweat and oil dripping from my hair.
Thank God for the pool downstairs which helps to shorten my suffering about 2 hours when I am in the pool.
I would soak the entire day but it wouldn't be healthy to laze around in the pool for the whole trip i am here which is 4 days.

Owhkay I am out of words now I am feeling numb from all the angst and annoyance from the whole of the past 2 hours occurence which I do not care to menceritakan sekali lagi as the other post had dissapeared after the whole fucking computer shut down on me (GRRRR).

I feel like screaming and breaking someone or killing someone.

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Heh.
I missed Joe Shen's birthday dinner.
Was it fun? :(

Inconsiderate CUR.

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Yoga Breaths

Edit.
at 6:14pm.





Gah. Nothing seems to be going in anymore.
And I don't exactly have a lot of time.
Was feeling so tired just now, but I couldn't sleep thanks to the caffeine.
It has made me restless sigh.

I alternated between studying and the piano today.
I seem to suddenly have the urge to play.. its weird,
cos when I had exams and was forced to practice, I stayed away from the piano as much as I could.
But now it seems as if I play it whenever I have the time and whenever no one is around.

I've been trying to play this piece by ear for the pass two days,
and I only managed to get the first part.
I couldn't hear the left hand clearly cos there were too many notes and my hearing skills aren't exactly that good.
And then suddenly I realized that it was a duet.
=.=
Its kinda silly when I come to think of it,
cos I got this song from an anim, and in the scene when this song appears is when the guy and girl are playing a duet on piano.
I was so blur I didn't even notice it. =.=

Anyway, listen to it and tell me if you know the title of the song. :)




I don't know why but I like tunes such as this one.
It keeps changing from major to minor, major to minor..
and its as if its telling a story.

Sejarah is killing me.
Accounts is killing me.
Addmaths is killing me.

I am dying. Sigh.
And the worst thing?
Its my own fault. :(

***

Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out.


Gah I'm feeling SO pissed off.
He bloody underestimates me and says shit to me as though I find that "joke" he made about me running of to watch tv or end up doing something else everytime I try to study funny all the time.
I shud've told him off when he first started saying it,
then maybe now I wouldn't be so damned pissed.
But not pissed enough to start using foul language, thankfully.
If not he would have gotten it full force.

At least he apologized la.
But at the moment I just can't bring myself to forgive this person who knows nothing about me and yet makes his own conclusions about me.

Yeah, you said you aren't making your own conclusions about me but the things you say to me SHOW that you are. Haven't you ever heard of the word subtlety? Or the phrase never judge a book by its cover? I think you have, but you just don't know how to practice it.

Owhkay, I feel bad for completely lashing out at you like that,
but I just could not stand it anymore.
I know I'm partially wrong for not correcting you and stopping you earlier on,
but you have and had no right to think that way about me.


I feel SO much better now.

In Dire Straits.

Edit.


They say that there is a silver lining at every dark cloud.



I've been surrounded by a dark cloud these past few months,
and although there's suppose to be a silver lining here somewhere,
I don't see it.
I'm not the type to complain on how pathetic my life is publicly,
but I currently feel as if I have no one to turn to.
So much regret and dissapointment have been piled on me lately,
I don't know how long more it'll take before I crumble.

It was raining hard with a huge thunderstorm just now.
And everytime that happens, I have to shut down the whole house's power system
so nothing would get destroyed by the lightning.
Normally Dad would be home, and he'd do it, and I wudn't be alone waiting in the semi darkness.
But this time.. I was all alone, lying on the couch,
waiting for the storm to lift.
The thunder was horrifying.
The lightning which streaked the sky litted it up like it was morning.
And when the climax of the storm brew;
the lightning brighter than ever,
and the sound of thunder reverberating at its loudest through this part of the Earth,
I realized, that I was on my own.
And that I would be the one person, whom I could turn to no matter when or where.
The one person who is going to help myself pull through everything.
Everything.
I finally realized that when failure descends upon you,
weighing you down,
all you can do is swallow it, fuck it, and get back up again.




A silver lining at every dark cloud?
I wonder.
Perhaps.

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Shitty. The perfect word to describe my day.
I'm suddenly finding myself wishing the boil in my eye hadn't subsided so I wouldn't have had to go to school today to face so much shit.
I was sms-ing my transport lady to come pick me up after school,
and Norita had seen me "in the action" from all the way infront. (I sit quite far back)
I don't really blame Norita from taking it from me,
cos I kinda got caught before but at that time I was playing with Machi's phone.
She'd given me a warning and given back my phone.
But this time.. sigh.
GAH.
Shitty.
And Hamizan.. God, I wanna kill her.
But nah, I think all the shit she uses on her face will probably do it for me one day.
I swear the foundation on her face is at least 1cm thick.
She didn't have to be such a bitch. :(
Yeah yeah I know I kinda deserve it, as we all know that handphones aren't allowed,
what more sms-ing in class.
But still! There are SO many other people who sms all day long in class and don't get caught.
I, on the other hand, who was sms-ing her transport lady to come pick her up after school gets caught.
WTF? Where's the justice in that? >:'(

If I had an extra phone at home, I wouldn't be so frustrated now.
The problem is that I don't have an extra.
My handphone is like a part of my body,
I can't live without it!
And so far there's no one who has an extra phone/old phone to lend me.
I am, yes, in dire straits! And to top off the cake with icing,
its the frickin holidays! How am I going to live without my phone during the hols?
Gosh I sound damned bimbo, but I am as serious as the sky is blue.
I am desperate. :'(

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On a lighter note, its mum's birthday today. :)
She's old. Haha :D
I love my mummy.