Happening?

Was browsing through the form 4's blogs (actually just one blog la hahaha I'll always remember her as the little kid in form 2 along with Yi Ching loller) and noticed that they're damn happening.

I feel.. old and un-happening haha.

Miss those days when we used to have one party after another, whether it's birthdays or just get-togethers, we were so much closer then.

At the time I never really thought that it would all slowly come to an end, like all things do.






During Yien's 16th Birthday (Pool Party!), at her dad's condo in Aman Suria.

I remember when we were all playing stupid games in the water; laughing and talking;
Jebat, Nigel and Adrian doing their thing on the guitar; and then suddenly Alina came with two buckets of KFC chicken and boxes of pizza. It was a good party.

I had to prop the camera up on stacks of tissue paper and plastic containers hahaha




Steph's 17th at Yong Meng's other place in Country Heights

A little more than a year later, with Jonathan added to the group.




Owh how time flies. Miss the old times.



But yes, I may be old.. but not THAT un-happening la.
I is going to party party tonight.


CYNNA! HERE I COOOMMMMEEEE!

I'm. Damned. Sore.

I just lost 20k one shot on fb poker. AAHHH FUCKING SORE CAN?

K mm.

And that's not the only thing I'm sore about.

In Viknesh's words I'm "getting emotional all" and I got fucking "playback-ed" la.

I did not enjoy being played the fool. Really, didn't enjoy it.


I finally found someone who's THAT two faced and THAT fantastic at lying as I am.

Tsk tsk.

Love, sweet love.

So Dina's studying and camping at Intec now, and she only comes back during the weekends.
So last weekend we had a poker session/gathering at Ser Siang's new place in Damansara Idaman.
Felt just like old times. Just that Jonathan and a few others weren't there.
I miss that short fuck la sigh.

Anyway. Pictures.

I'm not much on words today.
Cos I'm afraid if I keep typing all my other thoughts which are better kept to myself will come spilling out haha.

Like I how I miss my guy best friend but he seems to be occupied with finding himself/answers lately. Or maybe we've just been hanging out too bloody often and it's time to take some time off.

Or like how it'll never REALLY be like old times again because...


Ah. There. I've said too much. So yes. Pictures.

For those of you who have me in your facebook friends, you've probably already seen the pictures but yeah, here they are again anyway.








Haven't seen these people in God knows how long man




Siang, as usual. This boy never changes.




Hahahahhaa






Bald patch visible ==




Jane playing the Wii
I should've videoed Jane and Siang playing boxing on the Wii, bloody hilarious.




Jesse and Wai Hong playing this baseball game




They were playing those word games I used to play during std 4 to std 6. Where you pick an alphabet and you find countries, actors, food, movies starting with that letter, and at the end of a few round the winnner is determined by the most points.



Dina :)




I was playing with Joe Shen's iPhone.




At about 12 we went to yumcha at Kayu in Aman Suria.
That's Dillion with his bumblebee.






The one Aiman takes me to in Damansara Uptown is WAY better



Siang was kind enough to go out of his way to take me home that night.
Thank you, boy. :)



***



Can constant physical contact with one person actually evoke feelings?

Today when he was kissing me, I thought of you.

I hate Math classes. I hate them cos the lecturers expect so much.
And whilst everyone can deliver, I sit there with my head lolled to one side unable to process 70% of what is being taught.
Sometimes I wonder whether my entire right left brain is dead cos I seem to be so terrible at math.

Feels like addmaths all over again, just that this time the passing mark and the bar set for a grade A isn't so low. ==
And the pressure is x10.

Aggghhh.






To prevent my head from lolling to one side, I have to use my hand to support it. =.=




***



Happy 18th Birthday Eugeney.


I can't wait for you to come home.








Sigh.

No way to reach out

So last night I almost told him. Almost. Haha.
I've been feeling heavy all week (no, not physically as some of you, or rather MOST of you would care to point out); this feeling of a heavy, invisible weight pressing down on my chest.

Haven't felt this way since Form 4, when I went through the drastic change in circles of friends, massive realizations and major re adaptations.

Every time I tell myself not to get too attached to one person, I do exactly the same thing all over again.
Like with her, I often got so attached that I'd blow everything out of proportion, cling so close to her till she can't breathe and inadvertently struggle to get away from me.
I was always a needy person, I've been working on it.. but it seems that I've forgotten just how needy I can get.
I always tell myself not to trust to much, not to get too comfortable.
But these people.. somehow around them I want to just let go; and have been letting go. A little too much.
I forgot about the balance, I got carried away.

And now with him, I'm making exactly the same mistakes.

Like all the other times, I don't know how to fix it.
Like all the other times, I don't know what else to say.

I hold on tightly. But the tighter I hold on, the faster it seems to slip away.




***




And I sit in the darkness, hands bathed in the minimal light that is coming through my window.


And I wonder if he's with someone else.

Cos you are the sun in my universe

I am bored. And so, I shall kill some time by doing Ying's and Baby's tag.

Part One : On The Outside
Name : Lim Hwee Ching
Date of Birth : 3rd January
Current Status : In a relationship with Poon May Yi. But soon to be breaking up if she doesn't start paying more attention to me :(:(
Eye Colour : The usual dark brown
Hair Colour : In between dark brown and black
Righty or Lefty : Righty
Zodiac : Capricorn

Part Two : On The Inside
Your Heritage : Chinese
Your Fear : I've a few fears but the only one I can think of now is ROACHES
Your Weakness : Food. HAHA.

Part Three : Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up : Ahh fuuuck... college OMG. And then, mmm what's for breakfast!
Your Bed Time : about 1 to 2am
Your Most Missed Memory : I can't decide which one I miss more, form 5 or my cheerleading days...

Part Four : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : Coke. Coke. Vanilla Coke most preferably.
MCDS or Burger King : I.. omg can't decide. Er er er can't I have both???
Single or Group Dates : Mmm. A little of both I guess.
Adidas or Nike : Adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea : Long Island Tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla : Chocolate.
Cappuccino or Coffee : Chocolate.

Part Five : Do you...
Smoke : Nope.
Curse : Er yeah. haha.
Drink : Yes

Part Six : In The Past Month
Drank Alcohol : Yes
Been to the Mall : Yes
Been On Stage : Mmm.. nope.
Eaten Sushi : YUP
Dyed Your Hair : Nope, my hair's still a virgin HAHAA

Part Seven : Have you ever...
Played a Stripping Game : Mmm... maybe? HEHEHEHEHE
Changed who you were to fit in : Yeah. Not that I intentionally did it... like what Ying said, I think everyone changes to adept to situation. It's only normal. Those who can't adept, get casted out. But of course, picking up smoking or anything bad to fit into circles is not one I would do. It's happening to so many guys nowadays.

Part Eight : Age..
You're hoping to be married : Mmm after my career is nice and stable and Im earning my own money, preferably. That would probably be at the age of... 32. I hope.

Part Nine : In a guy/girl
Best Eye Colour : Anything really.
Hair Colour : Mmm... natural. Definitely.
Short or Long Hair : Whatever defines him.

Part Ten : What were you doing?
1 Minute Ago : Watching the last ep of Nodame Cantabile
1 Hour Ago : Researching for my accounts presentation tmr morning
1 Month Ago : Mmm... nothing significant.
1 Year Ago : Trying to get myself to study for my midterm exams haha. Form 5 seemed like so long ago

Part Eleven : Finish the Sentences
I love : Food. Clothes. Shopping. SHOES OMG. Food. And those who matter.
I feel : Bored. And fat.
I miss : playing the piano well. I miss hanging out with my old bestfriends.
I need : to start thinking about what I wanna do in life.

Part Twelve : Tag 5 People
Aiman
Debra
Pik Yie (Omg woman I haven't seen/spoken to you in a LONG time)
Tze Lin (MY FAVORITESS COUSIN IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD)
And whoever else that's bored out of their fucking minds like I am right now.

List Out 5 Presents You Wish :
1. Contentment.

With contentment, I have everything else.

K I should sleep. But I feel so awake. Mmmm.

If your heart is nowhere in it then I don't want it for a minute

Weekends can never be that long. This "long" weekend has just ended and I feel as if I only had the usual 2 days.

I hope my accounts lecturer forgets about the stupid test this morning. Cos I damn lazy. Haha.


Aiiissshhh college agaaiiiiiinnn...

HAHAHAHA

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Much too young to be inlove

I hate crowds. Always have.
So I don't know what compelled me to go check Marie Digby out at 1U last Wednesday haha.
Somehow the fact that there was definitely going to be throngs of people there didn't hit me right until we (Dina, Cheryl, Debra and I) were there tiptoeing trying to see what the hell was going on on the stage.
Ish. Suddenly remembered why I didn't go to such things before ha ha.

But it turned out to be pretty fun in the end; met up with people I haven't seen in some time and had good food (the ever orgasmic Ramly burger!).

But I seriously did not enjoy fighting with others for a good spot or watching Marie Digby perform through someone's camera while she was recording. =.=

Ah but owh well.






Dina picked Debra and I up.
Picture taken from Debra's blog :)




Debra and I




Yummy yummy yum yum!
Spinach Cheese Artichoke something something you'll LOVE it if you're a cheese person




Margarita Pizza




Owh yeah we went to Italiannies cos I wanted free bread haha.
Ended up having TOO much free bread, super carbs overload man.




Cheryl!
She's lost weeiiigghhtt I jealous! I wanna lose weight too hahaha.




Hahhaha






Loller






Yeah. That's from where I was standing. Can't see shit.




Hahahaha the guard came and scolded him shortly after that




Leysh and Shahril were there too. I didn't get a pic with Shahril though cos my camera battery died already.





Adrian!




Wai Hong :)




With Nicole and Debra




The ONLY good shot I managed to get ha ha




Short snippet of her singing Umbrella.
A few seconds of the video is of a guy's neck cos I didn't know I wasn't positioning my camera properly, I had to hold it up above my head in an angle to video her. =.=







Aiman and I got Ramly burgers after that and we ate outside my house hahaha.

The next day Serena took me out for a dinner and a movie (wtf sounds like a date LOL). We had Sakae Sushi and watched Narnia.
Good company, good food and a good movie. Now if only she were a guy... HAHA.

Then Friday night was spent chilling at Ashley's place. I was so tired from the events of the past week that I went to sleep at 12am.
On a Friday night. So loser la hahahaa.

My parking is so bad.
Had driving lessons this morning and then went to Terry's.
I banged two poles while practicing parking today and the people around LAUGHED at me.
Wtf? Next time you bang pole I give you my super-loud annoying signature laugh then you know. :(

So yes. An entire recap of the past few days.


I'm bored.

Daydreaming

So I spent Sat afternoon at Curve and Cineleisure with Ying, Jia Yang, Ashley, Baby and Yi Ming celebrating Ying's 17th birthday.
Ying and I got Ethan to drop us off after Terry's and Ying brought me straight to Cupcake Chic where she had me try a cupcake.

It was so freaking sweet! The cupcake, not Ying (HAHAHAHA I just had to add that in! :D).
I would say that it's nicer than all the other cupcakes I've had in my life but seriously, I am not willing to pay RM4.50 for that.
I think it's RM4.50 because of the sugar content lol.
After just one cupcake I was so jelak already haha. I hope cuppacakes aren't like that.
Because if they were it'd be super a conjob and the size of one cuppacake is like half the size of the ones at Cupcake Chic.

Mmm. So anyway we went to Sakae Sushi first while waiting for the others to come and I pigged out (I swear I can live on jap food EVERYDAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE) then Ash came, followed by Baby.
We then jalan-jalaned in the street market I was searching for Ipanema's and trying very, very hard not to buy anything else I kept getting so tempteeeddddd AAAHHHHH but seriously some stuff sold in the street market is seriously damn conjob I knew that but yet I was ssooooo tempted :( :( :( Ying bought a whole bunch of hairbands I bought two thinking that I'd wear them very often but now I only use them to push my hair back while I wash my face at night haha then we all headed to Manhattan Fish Market to eat some more. =.=
JY joined us shortly after that and then Yi Ming.

And then alll of us camwhored like crazy HAHA. My old camera worked very hard that afternoon.
Thank you baby.






Baby and I :)




Jia Yang likes to act cool




Pretty Birthday Girl. :)




I'm not lala k. =P




Mmm. I just like to act cute a little. Haha.




and then...





LALA FEST!





1, 5, 1




As May puts it: Stoudgirldoingnothing, 5, 2




1, 2, 3!




Owhkay fine maybe I am a little lala. Just a little.




1, 1, 1!




Heh. Owhkay so I have an inner lala side. DON'T JUDGE ME. :( :( :(




PICTURE OF THE DAY

Look at Rock's expression... priceless.








She was forced HAHA












Ahh... orgasm.




Yi Miiiinnggg!
I've missed you (and omg YOUR MASSAGE) so so so so so muuuch.












Emo kid on the block




She likes to inflict pain (biting, jumping, hugging/strangling)
I was still smiling in the picture because she hadn't pressed my nose yet haha =.=






Ashley and her pei face tsk tsk




Baby and I :)














Jia Yang and his two girlfriends




Taken







After pigging out (2nd time for me =.= I felt so gulty after that) we continued our thorough inspection of the street market.

I got JY to send me home in his farting car at around 6 something in the evening.
Was SO freaking tired when I got back.

Was supposed to spend Sunday finishing my homework with my neighbour whilst he studied for his exams, but in the end we got bored and went off all over the place with his friend and then back to his friend's place to watch movie and then went to pick up milkshakes before going home.


Like I said, funny how when I plan so much nothing actually turns out; and when nothing was planned my weekend turned out to be so busy.

Gaaahh it's such a hot day. And two of my classes got canceled today. =.=
So I ended up stoning from 10 til 2. Went to practice my foosball haha.

My daddy is back from Aussie. No more hanging with friends without having to think about the time sighh....


K SHOWER TIME!