It's safe to say we are alone now.

Owhkay so I am fucking bored.
I'm sick of doing math, sick of watching episode after episode... I wanna go out and walk but it's gonna rain. =.=

Two of my good friends are having the I-have-so-much-frickin-time-and-nothing-to-do-so-my-brain-runs-wild syndrome, and I think I'm having it too.

I need to get out and keep myself occupied.
First week of college was damned tiring, and I couldn't wait for the weekend and all, but now that I'm going through the I-have-so-much-frickin-time-and-nothing-to-do-so-my-brain-runs-wild syndrome I actually can't wait for college to start so I can keep myself occupied and thus, curing myself from this sanity compromising syndrome.

I just told Slimy that life prisoners are the people who mostly go crazy from this syndrome.
Too much time and nothing much to do about it or with it.

I canNOT wait to get my license so that way I'd be able to go places without worrying how to get there. =.=

Talking abt my driver's license.. I think I was supposed to go for my undang test today.
But no one called me up to tell me! I mean, they usually call up to tell you right.
RIGHT? Owhkay fuck.






During Econs class I think

The Indian girl looks like a Bollywood actress lol.
Kinda like Aishwarya Rai, no kidding.




My Korean friend, Da Young (pronounced Ta Yong) and I.

Yes I know I look like shit. Ha ha.



K I damn bored.


I'm DAMNED fucking BORED.

Accept mediocrity?

Today is finally the last day of the week.
Will be going to do some shopping with my favorite person in the world, Baby, after my last class today which is at 12.
Then have dinner with old friends, and go do some partying with my two bitches Dina and MayMay.

I'm so glad the first week is over.

I know it gets better after awhile..

I started college on Monday.
First day of college, I got lost 4 times. =.=
Second day of college, I had three classes and came back feeling like a walking zombie.
Third day of college wasn't that bad. Cos I had a 4 hour break in the middle and went back to DJ to see my bestfriend, Pn. Monica. Had my mum-made sandwich in her office, something I really miss doing.

I've made friends with a Korean girl, her name's Da Young.
She's got the typical Korean look, and she's damn sweet and nice.
And Esther Wong from DU, another super sweet and nice girl hahaha.
And the thing I love most about them both? THEY STUDY!
Which means that they're good influence. Sit with people like that and you'll get the heck of paying attention and studying too.
Not that Baby was bad influence, in fact I do miss seeing everyday ha ha.. just that we get along so well we don't stop talking sometimes.

I'll have pictures of my new college mates soon, when I remember to bring my camera haha.

And I've also decided to be a hero and take up further math when everyone told me it's motherfucking-ly difficult.
And the best part, I didn't take physics during form 5; which means I am going to have a hell of a time....

But I think I'm gonna do this.
If it becomes too bad... I'll just drop it in the middle.
Right. I'll do that.

Owhkay.


So... why do I still feel so unsure? Ha ha, Ching. Ha ha.

I'm longing for words to describe how I'm feeling

My first day of college is starting tomorrow, and I'm so dreading it.
I hate first days. Like, the first day of piano classes, first day of kindergarten, first day of primary school, first day of secondary school.. and now first day of college.
First days remind a lot of my younger, gawkier days.
The whole awkward make-new-friends phase, get-used-to-new-surroundings-phase... I do NOT like change.


Btw, May's selling off some of her damned nice tops for frickin cheap prices (at around RM20 to 25. Only one top is RM35.) so go grab them before they get sold out!
Most of the stuff are only worn once or never worn at all.

so CLICK!


Anyway, went for a omg-I-haven't-seen-you-in-God-knows-how-long-we-MUST-catch-up dinner with Serena, my neighbour and ex-golf kaki.

Ex-golf kaki cos I stopped playing golf haha.

We had dinner at Bella Roma, this Italian restaurant down at Damansara Perdana.
I love talking to this girl cos she always has a different view on things; she always gives me something to think about.
And most importantly, she gives me perspective.
That night... I saw everything I didn't see; about everything.
About the guy I'm obsessed over, about my studies, about my dad....
But this doesn't mean I'm not having any trouble accepting all of it.
But at the very least... I see things more clearly now, and in a better view.


We had soups for starters.
Serena found a piece of plastic in her pumpkin soup. I started laughing when she showed the piece of plastic to me; I don't know why I found it so amusing. =.=
The pumpkin soup was really bland, so don't have that if you decide to go there; unless you like bland food la then go ahead haha.

My fungi soup was alright. It wasn't creamy enough... but it was alright.

So anyway, we got a complimentary salad and free desert because of that HAHA!
I'm glad we had the free desert because the tiramisu that we had was ORGASMIC.
The BEST part of dinner that night.
The first taste left me feeling high up in the clouds and making disturbing moans.

We headed to Laundry for a few drinks after that.

Owh yeah, when we were leaving the restaurant, I slipped and fell down on the tiles outside.
It was raining and all. I turned around and saw a couple of guys in a grocery store laughing at me ha ha. Fucking embarrassing. Well not like it's the first time. =.=

I'm so bloody prone to falling down stairs la gah.
This is like the 6th time I have fallen down in public in the past 4 months!






The bland pumpkin soup with a piece of plastic in it haha!




Fungi soup




Complimentary salad




Serena's
Some pasta thing with cream tomato sauce with fresh basils and lamb. I don't remember the name of this dish.




Mine
Risotto. Not very good.




ORGASMIC TIRAMISU




Do you see the S and the C in the cocoa powder? :D



Then off to Laundry...





Chemicals
So pretty la; colourful!
NOW YOU SEE IT




NOW YOU DON'T!
Ha ha owhkay lame.




Serena and I






Yes I am a lobster




Round two

I died after round two. =.= Couldn't stand up.
WTF RIGHT. I didn't know my tolerance for alcohol was THAT low...






I'm so self-obsessed that even in my drunken stupor I still managed to take pictures of myself. =.=



Mmm so that was the last time I went drinking before my first day of college.
Gah first day of college. =.=

This is dulling to the senses, and it's crude; but it will do.

YAY I'm done with my undang seminar. One step closer to freedom of mobility!
Yeah I know I'm damn slow, even Jane who's a year younger than I got hers already but whatever la owhkay.

College is starting Monday and life will be quite hectic then.
I can't take Eng Lit cos Im doing the March intake, and there are only two posts left in the student council... so I don't think I want to run anymore. But owh well, I'll see about it.
But it's not like my chances of getting anything were high even if I did the Jan intake, so many competitors... but I would've ran anyway.

Stupid NS gah.

I wonder if I should become a hero and try out further math... ha ha I'd probably kill myself after 2 months.

So anyway, here are pics from Ashley's birthday thing last Thursday.
The nicey nice ones were taken by Aliff, my ex-classmate during form 5 (LOVE his camera, LOVE his skill); and the cacat ones are taken by me and my temperamental Olympus IR300.


Anyone wanna get me a new camera? Ha ha ha.






Birthday giirrrrlll




Caryn darling




MagBlooop!




Baby




Shafiq thinks he's cool with his shades and his slippers =P




Ariff




Ash and Aliff the photographer




Hello! :D












Hahahah this picture is so damn cute




Then off to our second lunch at Plus One Shabu Shabu...








Mmm yeah I know it looks kinda icky but it really is quite tasty. And quite overpriced, as I've mentioned before.




After that I headed to Starbucks to meet this guy, while my girls headed off to Yippee Cup to have bubble tea or something.


Anyway. I must digress for a minute.
If a guy asks a girl out, he should be ON TIME. Not fricking 20mins late!
The best part was that he was already in 1U, but he was chatting with his friends in OSC, leaving me to wait for him.
When I tell someone I want to meet them at 3.15pm, and they agree, I expect them to be ON TIME.
5 or 10 mins late I can take. But 20mins? And without even a valid reason (he was with his friends in OSC!) omfg I was damn ticked off.
I mean, if you wanna chat with your friends first, I totally understand. Just let me know and we could meet a little later, I wouldn't mind.
Don't tell me 3.15pm is owhkay and then comes 20mins late. That's just plain ungentlemanly and damned bloody annoying.
Because I HATE waiting.

And please, don't make up stories to impress me, because that's just lame.
And even if you wanna make up stories, at least let it be believable!
I feel like posting up your little make-up story to everyone so THEY can see just how unbelievable it was. =.= But I won't cos it's late and I haven't taken a shower haha.

What I wonder was, could he sense my displeasure and annoyance?
Owh well it doesn't matter.
I need to go take a shower.


I'll leave you (whoever who actually reads my shit) with a picture of me, before I got all annoyed and pissed.









Toodles. :)

I know I shouldn't have kept you waiting.

Owh Lord what is wrong with me?
I can't walk in heels anymore, I can't seem to take even a little alcohol anymore, and I'm obsessing over a guy who doesn't give SHIT about me!
And he's not even THAT good looking! And he smokes!
And I keep falling down stairs! What the hell is WRONG with me?

Got undang tomorrow morning. I need to crash. And it's only 1am omg I'm prematurely aging!







Owh shit think Im gonna puke =.=

Big, HARD, rock.

Tomorrow's the first time I'm gona wake up early since I left NS.
Haha owhkay not tomorrow, but in 4 hours. =.=

Had Ashley's birthday lunch at Ms. Read, then had another lunch at Plus One Shabu Shabu (that place is good but a little overpriced) and then had a bad date with good blended chocolate (whipped cream) then came back home.

My life is so void of excitement.
Don't ask me what kind of excitement I want, cos I don't know either.
Double lunch today was fun though. Catching up was fun.
Getting a huge-ass Jay Chou poster for a belated birthday gift was REALLY fun.
The saying IS true; the best things in life are priceless.

I've an orientation to go to in 5 hours so I am off to bed.



Eeeeee hooooorrr.

Which of the bold face lies will we use?

You know, I thought I was over all this.
This whole... I-care-but-you-don't-care thing.
I thought I'd finally made peace with the whole situation and stuff.
I mean, I have... it's just; why did I feel a small pang when Slimy mentioned it again on the phone just now?

I came to the realization that I can't force things anymore one night in NS while I was having my usual reading session before I slept; because things just aren't meant to be.
Well, not anymore.
The realization was like a little weight lifted off my chest... and a little sinking feeling in my stomach.

So this, I promise, will be my last recorded reminiscence of us.


My fondest memories of us were the times when I'd fix your necktie on for you.
The way you'd just stand quiet for the 2 minutes (because you can NEVER stand still, even now) while I'm tying on your necktie... I wonder what was going through your mind all those times.
But I guess I'll never know.

I don't think you even remember.



So there. The end of this chapter and the entire book.
This time... I'm really letting go.

I've got that boomboom

Think I've got a fever.
It's like all the blood in my body's rushing up to my head; even my eyes are blood shot..
It's been like that since 10 something but I've been playing poker on facebook while wearing my beret ha ha ha...

I'm still wearing my beret and looking like a retard but whatever la owhkay.


Good luck to those going for NS second batch tomorrow.
I sure hope you guys enjoyed it more than I did.

Not that I didn't enjoy NS; I just think it wasn't that fun.
It wasn't unbearable... but it wasn't that fun.

I'm still wearing my beret.


May and I went to watch Spiderwick Chronicles a few days ago; I don't remember my memory's all fuzzy right now I think it's too much blood in my head.

I did not slim down after NS, my tummy still looks as if I've a 4 month old foetus in it.
But my mother says I'm toner... ?
Haha GG.

Gah I've got so much forms to fill out, essays to write.
I'm so lazyy...

And Curly boy is coming home tomorrow yay!


Do you think I'm boring?
Cos I think I'm boring. I keep writing about the same things, posting up pictures of the things I do which is damned similar each time and repeating the same routine all the time...
Even if I may not bore you, I'm sure boring myself man.


And omg I'm such a bad friend.
I was chatting with MayMay at McD's when we were talking abt squeezing blackheads and stuff and then she said she missed Jonathan and I was like where's Jonathan I haven't seen him at all and she was like JONATHAN'S WENT TO UK TO STUDY ALREADY LA DEAR and I was like WTF then MayMay said remember that bbq thing he had the day before you went to NS that was like a farewell bbq thing and I just stoned.

Sigh. I didn't even say goodbye to Jonathan.
I hope he's happy there, I hope he still thinks about his tai bo ching (I do NOT like that name it's just... Jon used to call me that and it pissed me off EVERY TIME I miss that short fuck laaaaa) :(:(:(

Does anyone know when he's coming back to visit? :(

Other than that I'm also quite emo about other things so I've been downloading a whole bunch of cry movies and series' like JoyLuck Club and Meteor Garden (do NOT judge me) to cry over.

I don't know whether I've mentioned this before but a good way to let out all that pent up emotion and still be in denial is by watching cry movies and series'; that was you can let out everything, and still not admit anything is wrong when everything IS kinda wrong.
Get me?

Try it.


Nyeh. Pictures.



WTF? still haven't upload finish omg fuck slooowww.



dudududududu.



lalalalalalalalala



dududududulalalalalalalala



duladuladuladuladuladula




Did you know Shinchan in Malay is Dik Cerdas? HAHAHAHAHHAHAAH I KNOW QUITE HILARIOUS RIGHT!



Smart Dick hahahhahahahahahahahahhaha





OWHKAY PICTURES.






Baby, I and a turtle










We think we're cute ha ha






Unleash the lalaness




Oooh yessss




Uhuhh summoorrreee




Er, you can go all the way by yourself May ha ha ha... =P




Hahhahaha no one wanna teman her be lala hahahhahahha




Owhkay la friend la friend la...




Then the retarded-ness set in..




Yes. Absolute retardedness.




Owhkay I think I need to lie down now...

Illusion never changed into something real

Mmm yes so I haven't been blogging often.
I know you read this a lot in many other people's blog which were abandoned/deleted shortly after that.
But rest assured my blog will not be abandoned/deleted when I say; I think I've lost my blogging mojo.

Owhkay fine some of your are probably exclaiming vehemently, "WHAT MOJO? SHE NEVER HAD ONE IN THE FIRST PLACE!"
So I'll rephrase and say that I think I've lost the urge to blog. For now.

There are quite some things I did want to blog about but somehow can't really remember what they are...

So just now I spilled a whole pot of soup.
When I heard the clash of the metal against the thermoplastic of my refrigerator my gaze flickered to the noise and I saw my mum's favourite black pot overturned with it's contents soaking into the floor mat and some of it dripping off the refrigerator door.

Don't ask me how it happened because I don't really know either.

My midnight snack turned into a half hour cleaning session instead.


And then there's this person.
Observing recent actions and lack of attention I finally got the hint.
So why am I still waiting?


I look like a Malay.
May says the tanner me looks better. I still think I look like a Malay.

My tummy got a little smaller from NS.
But now it's back to it's full roundness in all it's glory.
Haha disgusting, I know.


Mum took me to sign up for college a few days ago.
Im growing up so quickly. Or rather... the years are going by so quickly.
I've not "grown up". I know I'm still quite immature.

My father hates the smell of my new perfume.
But I like it.

I'm sleepy right now but I don't really want to sleep.


That person didn't say goodnight.

I wanna bathe with you in the sea

Hello people yes, I am back from Gunung godforsaken Semanggol; for good.
I am very brown and according to Aiman and my mother, I have not become thinner.
And I didn't lose any weight la so... heh.

But if and when you see me and you know me, just say that I've become thinner la owhkay.
Inflate my ego a bit for me, for it's become quite deflated since I got my results ha ha.

I will blog about the full NS experience later on la owhkay.
Been feeling quite lethargic the entire day.

For now I'll just post up pics on Jon's BBQ thing that I went to just the day before I left.








The guys took soooo long to get the fire started.
"scouts" apparently ha ha ha joking laaa. :)




Pokering while waiting for the food




No, Steph does not poker




I don't know why but I look damn retarded in almost all the pictures I took that night






Look at all the priceless expressions hahaha




Mmm wonder what Steph's scolding Wai Hong about hahaha










Steph and Thian Hong
















Poker poker poker what's with boys and poker




Kimmy and I




I find this pic very cute lol




Boyfriend and I!




Umm those pics which you knwo I've taken with you and are not up is because I looked tooo retarded so I decided not to post them up.



On a totally unrelated note I got five A1's, one A2, one B3 and two B4's owhkay so stop asking me thanks stop deflating my ego further thanks stop making me feel stupid thanks.


I am going to bathe.