Today when he was kissing me, I thought of you.

I hate Math classes. I hate them cos the lecturers expect so much.
And whilst everyone can deliver, I sit there with my head lolled to one side unable to process 70% of what is being taught.
Sometimes I wonder whether my entire right left brain is dead cos I seem to be so terrible at math.

Feels like addmaths all over again, just that this time the passing mark and the bar set for a grade A isn't so low. ==
And the pressure is x10.

Aggghhh.






To prevent my head from lolling to one side, I have to use my hand to support it. =.=




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Happy 18th Birthday Eugeney.


I can't wait for you to come home.








Sigh.

What are we fighting for?

Gah I just can't seem to get myself to sit down and study.
Only a mere 33 days away...

We surprised Dina at her house yesterday.
Siang called me up on Sunday night telling me about it, and I asked him how many people were gonna come.
And he answered, "A few people only la..."
Haha in the end we all came in 4 cars, which is about 20 people.

Aunty Farah (Dina's mommy) prepared a whole load of food for us.
The corn beef stuffed croissant was orgasmic hehe.





We sang for Dina first,




And then for the rest of the October babies.



We hope you liked the little thing we planned for you. :)



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Dear Dina,


Happy 17th Birthday. I'm sorry I didn't get you a real present, because I am broke.
I shared to pay for your new bag, though. :D
And I also made you something, which I will pass to you this Sun when I go to your place for Raya. :)


For now, just know that I love you, and I'll always be your very big-mouthed, big-breasted (I am not boasting), fat and loving, Ching Bing.







Muchos lovee.



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Haha fuck. I didn't know I had to tell her I didn't go to school today.
Mmmmm she must be so pissed waiting for me outside...
Gah I shud've smsed her. Sigh. I crave mobility.

I've never been perfect, but neither have you.

Owhkay I know my blog's damn boring.
A lot of emo shit happened the past few days.
First the shit with my transport lady; if you're wondering how much trouble can a transport lady cause let me tell you this, A LOT. Especially when she has so much emotional baggage and is a little crazy due to the emotional baggage which she can't seem to let go of.
Then there was the TopShop student lock-in which I MISSED, and I am still emo over that.
THE BLOODY JERSEY TOPS WERE GOING FOR RM19 OWHKAY???
Waaaahhhhh emo laaaaaaaa.
Faktor emo yang seterusnya adalah saya tidak boleh fokus dalam pelajaran saya dan SPM adalah hanya 37 HARI LAGI.
Saya berasa sangat GG-fied sekarang.
Selain itu, saya juga tidak mempunyai sedikit pun determinasi untuk mengulang kaji.
Ha ha ha jangan kata mengulang kaji, perkataan yang sepatut digunakan adalah 'belajar' kerana apabila guru tengah mengajar dalam kelas saya tengah daydreaming (what's day dreaming in BM again?) about McD's.

Heh so anyway.
I promise, there will be a proper post with many pictures for you lazy shitheads who don't like to read to view.

I added more stuff to my selltrade page, go check it out people.

Click!





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And today is Stephanie Wong's birthday.
Everyone go wish her please.
Don't need to buy her anything la, that woman has everything already.... hehe. :D





Wong and I



I have pics of us when we were std 6 and all, but I'm not gonna post them up cos it reminds me of my uglier self during my childhood days when my mata was sepet and I thought I was so cool. Ha ha.
See, this one so nice. Can see your dimple. :)


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Owh yes one more thing.
I'm in debt.
So help me out and click on the nuffnang ad right after this post, sil vous plait?
Thank you terima kasih xie xie arigatou gracias kam siah haha I'm becoming a loser.
May and Slimy, don't you DARE say I already am one. :(

The time has come to make a decision.

I hate period pains :(

I constantly feel like shitting and sleeping.
Either that or I constantly feel like yelling at someone.
=.= Sigh.

I ordered McD's at 12am+ last night.
When the delivery guy came, he obviously pressed the doorbell.
I ran downstairs to collect my McFlurry and fries (yummyyumyum)
and bumped into my very pissed off dad haha.

I told him it was only McD's.
I thought it was a robber!
I then meekly told him that burglars don't exactly press doorbells before they come in a steal your shit, and also the term is burglar, not robber.
You crazy ar?? McD's at 12 something at night!

Hahahaha I don't think it's crazy, just helluva fattening.


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Jay Chou's new movie!
I sure hope his acting has improved.
But what the heck, I'm still gonna catch it cos it's Jay Chou. (insert ^^ emoticon here)







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Omg my cousin just gave me the whole collection of my favo emoticons!
Omg my period pains are killing me =.=


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Owh right. I went to this blogger gathering thing at Friendster cafe last night with Aiman, Fairuz and Eyan.
For me it was owhkay. Maybe it's cos I'm not very good at socializing and all... haha.
The finger food was yummy though! And they served these green colored drinks which I think was guava juice, I like! A little bit of alcohol would have made it so much better though.
They had a Nintendo Wii competition (sort of) too, where volunteers/random people from a list would be called out to play against each other and the winners were given prizes and stuff.

Since Fairuz knew one of the organisers he was asked to come out and play hahaha
Some cow racing game haha.

Overall, it was pretty interesting. :D





HI








The guy Fairuz was playing against.
His name was Nicholas, I think.






Fairuz and I




Met Natalie there! :)




Hello Aiman




Slimy and I :)




Lol Eyan haha :D



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And yes,






Ethan and I
6th Oct 2oo5



Happy Birthday!


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So I tried doing my accounts today.
Gosh it was like relearning everything again. =.=

I feel as if I've some important homework to do, I just can't pinpoint what.
And Jade was supposed to call me, but she hasn't. :(
Where are you laaa womaann??



Gosh my pains are killing me.


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I couldn't help myself...






Xiah Junsu!
*faints*

I still think you're WEIRD.

:)
Yes, I do.


Its kinda weird, when I think about how we first met.
Or rather, how I first noticed your existence haha.
You were running in the third floor corridor with your long flowy hair untied hahahaha.


Its kinda weird, when I think about the times my other friends and I used to talk about how weird you are during form 2.
You'd comb your hair in class, and during exams..


Its kinda weird, when I recall the time I felt someone feel my hair (which was then tied up into a ponytail) while I was waiting under the small shade.
I also remember it was raining bastards and bitches.
I aptly turned around, and saw you there.
"Did you do rebonding? Damn soft.."
"Er, no.. " I replied, while thinking to myself, damn freaky weiy..
It happened during form 2.


Its kinda weird, when I recall the time I found out you were pretty good friends with Ying Xian and Sarah, since you three were in the same class during form 3.
I was like, owhkaaay...
Yes, I admitt; I was still skeptical.


Its kinda weird, when I started form 4 by changing to a stream and a class where none of my old friends were.
I changed to a class with you in it, amongst other people.
I didn't know what I was getting myself into, but I plunged in anyway.


Its kinda weird, the first time you moved your seat next to mine.
"Err.. what are you doing here?" I asked in the most polite tone I could manage, trying hard to hide my annoyance.
"Its damn hot sitting there lah, so I sit here for awhile."
I sighed.


Its kinda weird, when I think about the time you had asked to share my textbook when you had not brought yours.
"Can I share you textbook? I didn't bring mine.."
"Er, owhkay." I said, as I moved my textbook closer to you by less than 2 inches.


Its kinda weird, when I think about the time I waited patiently for 2o minutes by myself after you left the photostat shop, just so I could photostat my AddMaths textbook for you.
I had accomplished the task without getting annoyed or angry,
which was pretty weird, seeing as I am a very impatient person.


Its kinda weird, when I think about the first time I noticed that I was starting to enjoy your company, and that I could laugh freely with you, and say whatever I want without being judged.


Its kinda weird, when I think about how a school day can be so boring and difficult when you're not around.


Its kinda weird, when I think about how much I've come to depend on you.


You seem to have become the one who helps me keep my sanity in my very insane world.

I know that there were times when I took you for granted,
and I hurt you, and I made you feel lowly about yourself.
I'm sorry. I promise I'll do whatever I can so I won't make you feel that way anymore.


Thank you,
for putting up with my shit for the past 10 months.

Thank you,
for sharing my joys and my sorrows with me.

Thank you,
for being there for me when I had no one else.

And lastly, but definitely not least;


Thank you,
for being my FRIEND.

I love youuuu, Machi.
Happy Birthday.

DinaDiva,

I have SO MANY things to say.
But I just can't seem to type them out haha.
But what I will say is,

Thank you.
For helping me to pick up the pieces when I was shattered.
For being there to share and laugh at my lame jokes (and I laugh at your also lah haha).
For our Whitney Houston singing sessions.

And always remember,
that you are a STRONG person.
You are independent, and no one will EVER get you down.
And even if they do, I'll be here for you; just like how you were here for me. :)







I love you.
Happy Sweet Sixteenth.
And please don't forget to bring my charger on Wednesday. :D

Dear Stephanie Wongwongwong,

A short message for you.


We've known each other since primary school.

I remember..


The time we used to play at your old house in DJ.
The time when I told you my fantasy stories and you believed them.
The time when we had our little arguments.
The time we had our big arguments.
The time we had our 3 month cold shoulder huge argument.
The laughter you laughed at me.
The laughter I laughed at you.
The time we did silly things such as trying to do ballroom dancing (with Dina)
The time we yelled at each other in 1U.
The time we used to cheer together as a team.
The time when we used to play with Bubbles when she was really small.
The time when Dina and I tricked you into watching Skeleton Key by telling you we were watching Sky High.
The time when you, Jade and I went to Bakerzin and ate til I went home with a negative $$.
The time when we gossiped about people. (hehe)
The time we got gossiped about.
The time the form 2's came after you and I when we were form 1.



And the list goes ooonnnn and oonnn...
Another year has passed, adding another year to our friendship. :D




How long will I love you?
Forever and ever, babe. :D

Here we go agaiiinnn..

Its been such a boring past few days.
Yeah.. and you'd think I would've gotten around to pondering books,
but it seems that I haven't. SIGH.
I see my Dooms Day up ahead..
And here we go again.

I wonder when the time will come when I will finally grow a hardworking bone in my body.
And put my brains to better use than just makeup and clothes and things which I shouldn't be thinking about.
Gah.

Enough of that..
May Yi came over yesterday, and we did.. shite.
Yeah. Since I was using the computer, I told her to go camwhore with my digital cam.
I didn't think she'd actually do it.. but I shud've known better haha.
I found these pictures in my camera this morning when I turned it on.















LOL Machi, Machi.

You're all probably wondering why the pictures are so big-assed.
Thats cos its easier for me to upload them one shot in photobucket instead of using dumb blogger which keeps being bitch.
And when I upload them into photobucket, their extra large because thats the original size of the picture.
I resized it abit la.. if not it won't be big-assed anymore,
it'd be damnchatbig-assed.

I've got a free dinner tonight at Mandarin Oriental,
and I had completely forgotten about it and promised to go for someone's party.
Sigh how blur can I get?
Sorry huns,
I got you something, though :D

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This little section is for you.
You're 20 today, and I wish you a very Happy Birthday.
I don't think you visit my blog anymore,
much less even think about me on this day.
But I cannot bring myself to swallow my pride and wish you personally.
So I'll just do it here.

3 years ago, on this very date, we spent the day holding hands.
And I had given you a cup with writings on it.
Such sweet memories.. I don't know if you still remember them.
But it doesn't matter anymore.

Happy Birthday, Bear.
You will always have a place in my heart. :)
No matter how much we don't get along anymore.






It hurts to be with you..
Do you want me to leave?
No.. stay.

Unfaithful

Edit.

My nose has been bleeding the entire day.
Not like continuously la, but it starts and stops.
Its damn hard to type this post, cos I'm holding tissue to my nose.
But I have absolutely nothing to do,
Nothing's on on tv,
and its difficult to do anything else when you're holding tissue to your nose.
My head hurts too.
Something's wrong with me. =/

I miss hommeeee.
I wanna watch my sad sad taiwanese dramas and cry.
I wanna sing out loud with no one listening, (cos I sing really badly)
I wanna dance to Rihanna and PCD alone in my room, (cos I dance really badly, with the added flab zomg.)
And I can't do all that here cos the condo is kinda small,
and everyone (aunty, uncle, nieces, cousins, my cute grandmama) is constantly around.
:( I miss PJ. I miss Mutiara Damansara.
Ooooh, but OldMan is coming tomorrow.
HEEEHEEEEE. =D=D

I've been addicted to Taiwan dramas lately.
There's one, Wang Zhi Bian Qing Wa
aka Prince Turned Into A Frog thats showing on AEC now.
Its soooooooooo addictive!
Then when I'm not watching that,
I'm watching It Started With A Kiss with my cousin.
Then I just bought another one yesterday,
At Dolphin Bay, (it only costed me 18 bucks! I also bought the whole Inuyasha 157 eps + movies for RM35!! I was so hyperventillating when the lady told me the price.)
And suddenly it HIT me.
Like, hit me reaaalllll hard.
I need a life.

Owhh yeaa, and for you observant people,
I'm sure you saw that I updated the songs in my sidebar.
Go listen go listen!
For those who understand Chinese,
you'll also notice how deep the lyrics are for the first song.

I wanna go watch movie.
I mean, I wanna go watch movies.
There's Da Vinci Code, She's The Man, Over The Hedge, X-Men III, etc.
I am SO outdated.
I wanted to get Dina to watch with me,
but she's having her hardcore cheer-piano marathon for the next two weeks.
Sooooooo... who wants to go with me?
Just call, or sms, or leave a msg in the comment section, or my cbox..
Anywhere. Really.
Omg I sound so despo. =P
Gah I'm feeling despo. =/
I think its my headache.
And the blood which is still rushing out of my nose.
I have a picture of all my bloody tissues which I took this morning,
but I wouldn't want anyone to faint after looking at them.

I know almost every paragraph has no connection with one another,
but Im seriously feeling lifeless right now,
and Im just typing out whatever comes to my mind.
I want a new handphone.
Damnn...
I want that pretty green skirt I saw in TopShop!!!
Gah. No money.
I think the song Unfaithful by Rihanna should've been given to Christina Aguilera to sing.
Cos I think Christina would've totally made it a hit,
and that Rihanna's voice doesn't suit this kinda song.
But I still like the song.

I wanna do something with my hair.
Its been straight ever since I was born and I'm so bored of it.
I wanna perm it, straighten it, whatever.
Just not cut it short.
I wanna tell my bestfriend since form 1 that we're drifting apart,
or rather, he just ain't caring anymore.
I wanna tell him that he totally ignores me now.
And then, suddenly I think that I deserve it cos I used to pick on him real bad last time.
I may have been playing around, but I guess it did hurt him.
I wanna tell him I miss talking cock with him, I wanna tell him that I miss the little things.
Like sitting beside me during tuition.
He use to sit beside me during tuition sometimes,
but now when I sit next to him, he moves away.
WTF weiy. Why suddenly so emo.

Ken is SO outdated. =P
I moved house in form 1,
and he thinks I still live in Taman Megah.
I never lived in Taman Megah. Its Mayang Jaya, Ken.
And I now live in Mutiara Damansara.
And Ken, I've stopped going to my aunt's (she's actually my babysitter. She took care of me since I was 2 months old. Ivan too, if any of you reading this knows him.)
since the beginning of last year.

Oooooh, I think Jolin Tsai's new song is damn nice,
and I'm so jealous of her figure and the way she dances.
I'm a freak aren't I?

I miss Jade.
I can't wait til Eugeney comes home.
I wanna go shopping.
I love my mum cos she's buying me Penang Char Koay Teow for dinner.
Extra prawns. Hahahahhaah Slimy hates prawns.
I'm telling you to loosen up my buttons babe, uhuh,
saying what you gon' do to me, uhuh..

Eih. My nose stop bleeding already.
YAY! Wang Zhi Bian Qing Wa is starting so bye!

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Everyone who has a blog and who went for forum already blogged about it.
Except me, cos I'm in Penang,
and my modem at home is down.
I know you're already bored of seeing forum pictures,
but still come back to read my forum post, yea?
And comment too... *sheepish smile*
Promise, k? :)

WeiJing's having a barbeque party tonight,
and I can't go cos Im stuck in freakin Penang watching Taiwanese dramas,
not that watching Taiwanese dramas is a bad thing,
but I wanna eat barbequed lamb chops, yummy sausages, tender grilled chicken..
Zomg Im so hungry now.
And OldMan may not be coming anymore..
I wanna go home. :(
I wanna go to Jane's for the bbq party. :(
I wanna.. I wanna.. :(

Anyhows,

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIAM WEI JING!

Have a good one, babe. :)