When darknes turns to light, it ends tonight..

Haha hey blog, sorry there've not been many proper updates.
There will be, soon. Caryn's birthday dinner (yeah I know its been a loooong time but yeah, Im still gonna do a post on that one),
And posts on another two upcoming events.
There will be more pictures for your viewing, owh dear blog.

Old Man's not replying my messages and its irking me.
I don't know why. Maybe its cos I just canceled on him.
But what am I to do? I can't go out with only RM3 in my purse. =.=
I'm even considering not going for camp gathering tomorrow.
But I really don't wanna be stuck at home all day again.
I mean, I've been at home for the past two days cos I chose to stay home..
Was a bit tired, from all the mall trips so I thought staying home for 2 days would do me some good.
Yeah, it did, but now Im just feeling restless.

Haha Im rambling. I was thinking of changing my skin back,
since I don't think I can sleep now, but I'm just too lazy.
Blah.

Sigh.. I hate having no money.
December is drawing close, and Jade is coming back on Saturday, the only good news in a long time.
I'll be working for 9 days at 1U, The Oval with Snuckums(Machi) and a few others.
I don't know whether it'd be fun,
but Im just looking ofrward to the money.
I need money. Badly.
Yeah yeah it aint no life and death situation,
its just that if I don't have money my partying ways will be restricted,
and December (Christmas and NYE month) is a month where money is much required.

K.. its 10 minutes to four, and I shud really go to sleep.
I just wish I had something to look forward to, to wake up to,
rather than harsh reality and cold truths(one of them being that I have no money grr).
Gosh.. its at moments like these when I feel so.. empty.
Empty in the pockets haha.

Ah well.. during circumstances like these, I can only stick to the phrase,


"Money isn't everything."










The hell it isn't.

Wait a Minute

There's shitty music playing on the radio now.
I can't sleep.
My brain's reeling..
from nothing.

It seems like so long ago when we were still really close,
when in fact it was only a year ago.
The tide has drifted us apart,
and I seem to be the only one who notices.
Its owhkay, I don't fault you for not noticing.
There are many things going on in your side of the ocean after all.

I remember the times when we used to swim in the same school of fish,
the times we used to laugh and play;
the times I had your shoulder to cry on,
and the few little intimate moments we had.

I don't know if you've stopped caring,
but it doesn't matter as long as I still do.
I am not asking for anything,
nothing at all;
I just hope you'll still remember me when you're in another ocean,
perhaps on the other side of the Earth.

And I just want you to know that...




















I really, really miss you.
My friend.

Through The Glass

I like this skin,
its simple.
The colours are so vague..
like they're not exactly there;
but yet they are.

Mmm.
I don't seem to be making sense.
But you get what I mean..











right?

Yeah, I know you do. :)

Sashimi

I've a craving for Salmon Sashimi.
Anyone wanna treat me? HEHE. :D

To those of you who read my blog,
there will be a proper update soon, very soon.
I just can't give y'all an exact date.
See my mood lah haha.


TTFN. :)




p/s: I took the photo above when I was having a Japanese lunch with my Mummy. Comments on the photo whether good or bad are most welcomed.

I never promised you a ray of light.

Blur Retards. :)

I'm off to camp this morning.
No, I do NOT know what I've gotten myself into,
but heck it, sometimes we never know what we're doing.
And this is one of those times.

Will be back soon.
Take care, everyone! :D




I love Machi.

Guilt

Edit.
At 3.03am, 17th Nov 2oo6.



Just had a three hour phonecall with Eugeney.
I never knew that talking on the phone could be this tiring.
Owh, maybe its because I'e been awake and about since 6:30am the previous morning.
That means that I've been concious for 21hours.
Mmm so tired.
I don't even know why I am typing this HAHA.

Owh yeah, I just suddenly remembered.





MACHI IS HHHOOOOMMMEEEEEE!

***

I am damn layan diri.









I'm afraid.

Emperor

I mixed some Dettol with warm water,
dipped a piece of cotton into it put it around the infected piercing on my ear,
and pressed. Hard.

I let out a little scream.
I took deep breaths.
Then removed the cotton.
Blood and pus sticking to it..

I repeated the procedure til my mixture of Dettol was finished.

And thats how I am fixing my piercing.
I can't believe I never thought of washing my wound with Dettol.
Maybe its because when I was young I used to fall down alot,
and my dad would wash all my wounds in Dettol.
He'd rub my wounds with cotton soaked in Dettol hard, til all the pus and dirt came out and he'd only stop when fresh blood starting oozing out.
None of those were ever good experiences.
Quite traumatizing, in fact. Its no wonder I didn't think of it.
Its more like I locked the idea out.

And why am I telling you all this shit?
Hahahahhahaha because I'm uploading pictures to Photobucket and got nothing to do during the wait.

Feeling disgusted? Hehe.

Mmm yeah, a full update on what's been happening in my not-so-happening life.


During my last night in Penang,
my cousin's and I went for a steamboat barbeque.
Its RM16 for all you can eat.
For those of you who don't know what a steamboat barbeque is,
its sort of like, a steamboat and a barbeque together.
Geddit? There's a picture below.
Hahahhahaa I suck at describing things.

I ate like the pig I am, and that resulted in my piercing becoming severely infected. =.=
I should have heeded the myth about red meat and eggs causing piercing infections.

Well, at least the food was good and the cooking part was fun. :)







Mmmm yeah.
Few days ago I went for this survey thing for Clean&Clear with Wong, RahRahChan and MayMay.
We stopped by McD's for Steph's lunch before heading to the venue.



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Hahahahahahahahaha Wongggg. :D



We got RM80 in cash and a bunch of freebies.
Gosh, I keep collecting money but spend three times faster than I collect.
My money keeps running out! I have to stop being so extravagant.
But the thing is I am not even being extravagant! (I think)
I am just buying essentials!
Like food and clothes.. and more food.
I should cut down on the food. =/
Then maybe I could lose some flab, too.
I am all talk but no action.. gah.

Owh yeah did I mention that RahRahChan has GORGEOUS handbags?
Gosh, I hate her! I wanna steal all her bags.
All those beautiful bags..
I've been using the same old piece of shit since last year!
Its so old and dirty already.
*makes mental note to buy a new BIG handbag*

*crycrycry*

Moving on,
Went to The Curve yesterday to meet up with Lynn and MayMay at the eyewear shop.
They both bought coloured contact lenses.
MayMay bought forest green and amethyst,
while Lynn got the hazel, I think.
I'm going to the eye doctor's to get my contact lens tomorrow with my darling mummy.
At least now that she's paying for it I have a little extra cash to go around..
Sigh. but as usual, it'll be gone in a flash. =.=
I really have to keep track of my money..

The weather is getting kinda creepy.
Its like, the sky outside is so dark but the sun is still shining so brightly!






The colour doesn't look that obvious though..
Mmm I was thinking of getting turqoise.

We walked around a bit,
met up with Siang and Joe and together we went to catch a movie.
We watched Accepted.
It was pretty funny, and I found it kinda inspirational.
Especially the last part when he was giving his speech in court.

We went to starbucks afterthat.




Legs! Quite obvious whose legs belong to whom, eih? Heh.





Joe looks so cute here haha :D



After they all went over to Joe's I walked to Guardian pharmacy to get some antiseptic cream for my ear.
I asked the lady working there and she showed me where it was.
Damnit, I didn't know Burnol was an antiseptic cream!
I thought it was only for burns and the like.
=.= gosh I am so stupid. And there I was searching the house for antiseptic cream and thinking that I couldn't find any..

Anyway, as I was searching the racks, I saw this woman walking by holding a leash.
The first thought that popped up in my head was that she had brought her doggy into Ikano.
But it was no dog that I saw at the end of the leash; it was (I assume) the lady's little girl, looking about 4 years old.

She leashed her daughter to her???
That seems pretty.. animal-ish, don't it?

On the way home I told my mum about it,
and she said that its pretty common amongst the westeners and their children.
I was quite appalled.
My mum further explained that it kept the child close to them while giving them a bit of freedom to roam around without getting lost.
She also added that she should've used it on it when I was young since she kept losing me in public areas. =.=

Do you see the leash over there in the middle?

Had another barbeque after coming back from The Curve.
The food was wonderful.
My Aunt from Sydney came here and with her she brought a whole bunch of marinated raw beef steaks and super fat sausages.

Yes, more beef. But I decided to fuck my ear and just eat.
And that was what I did.
I am a pig laa.




Uncle Brett working the grill
Do you see those absolutely delicious fat sausages over there?






She also prepared some mushroom sauce to go with the beef steak.
The sausages were orgasmic.
So bloody orgasmic.

I am more of a lamb person, but the beef last night was spectacular.

My aunt's whole family loves dogs.
They have about 6 dogs, the last I counted.
Their latest one is a pure bred Schnauzer named Kaiser.
He's kinda cute.




Little Kaiser has an original Gucci collar.


But the dog that I love most is my cousin Genevieve's Shih Tzu.
He is the cutest, most arrogant, most lovable pooch EVER.

I present to you..

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Isn't he just the cutest?




I am so getting a dog after I move out.



Mmm yeah, and thats all.
Machi's coming home tomorrow!
I can't wait.
I miss her. :(

And besides, I need her to go to Zara with me on Friday.
Hehe. :)

And yes, to all form 5's our there who's sitting for SPM,
I'd like to wish y'all good luck and break a leg!

Can someone tell me?

There's been a perpetual thumping in the temples of my head since I woke up this morning.
Went for this survey thing; Wong recommended me.
Got free Clean&Clear stuff and RM80. (WEEEEE! THAT HALF-CARDIGAN FROM ZARA IS SO MINE!)
At least I got something out of sitting there with my headache giving me hell.
I like money.

Mum dropped by the salon before heading home so she could get her hair washed and cut.
On the way home, I broached the subject of me joining again.



Mum, I wanna go back.



She didn't respond at first, but then as usual she gave me a whole bunch of reasons why I shudn't go back and tried to convince me not to.
I kept telling her that I'd keep my results in good shape and that I won't hurt myself and kept trying to convince HER to let me go back.



But girl, next year's your SPM. You have to concentrate on your studies.



When she said that, I knew I was losing the battle.
What good way to convince me that I shudn't go back to something which would take up a lot of my time, wear me out and make me skip a few classes than to threaten me with my future.
And SPM is my future.
The starting of it anyway.



Mum, everything will finish by the end of June! I will still have four months to go before SPM.



I noticed that when I was giving her reasons as to why she should allow me to pursue what I enjoy, I was not only trying to convince her; but also myself.
I know that if I go back, I'd be taking on a lot of extra pressure.
But then I think the pressure I would be enduring the whole of next year if I go back would be extremely worth it, because I'd get to do what I want; what I enjoy.
And yet there's a thought in my mind which screams:



"What if I don't do well for SPM? What if my lazy self takes over again and I don't do well in my term and monthly exams and trials? What if I let down my parents, my teammates who are also my friends, and ultimately myself?"



I realized that I could not even convince myself as to why I should allow myself to go back.
I keep telling myself that others have done it during their SPM year, and did well for the exam anyway.
I keep telling myself that if they can do it, I can do it too.
I mean, why not, right?
And then another thought pops up in my head.
Those people are smart and hardworking, two things which I lack.
Would I be able to achieve what they have, if I tried?
Would I be able to stand the pressure throughout and not crack halfway?



Baby, next year is your last year. I don't want you to screw it up and regret it later.
Precisely, mummy! It IS my last year, and I want to enjoy it as long as study for my SPM.



Regret.
If I do go back, and I don't keep my scores up properly I don't want to regret ever going back. But the thing is, I have a choice in that. I can choose to work to keep my results in acceptable figures AND also do what I love.
But if I don't go back, then I'd always regret never going back.
And in that, I won't have a choice anymore. Because its now or never.
No turning back.



And its not just your results I am worrying about. What about safety? You're always carrying people and doing crazy stunts. What if something bad happens? I know you will be careful, but what if? If something bad does happen, you may have to stay back a year to complete your SPM, and you don't want that, do you?



It is true. There is a possibility.
But things like this have never really happened! Not that I know of anyway. (TOUCH WOOD TOUCH WOOD!)
The worst I'd heard of the injuries were sprained ankles, pulled muscles, and the one where Sandra had to go to the hospital because she bruised her ligament.
But that was all.

Finally she relented a bit, and asked for reasons why I wanted to go back so badly.
I answered, short and simple.



It is something I love, something I enjoy.



But apparently that wasn't enough.
And I just couldn't think of anything else to say!
I loved cheerleading, and I want to go back to it.
Isn't that reason enough?



Sigh.
Girl, listen to mummy, you've had your chance. You even reached the top spot, now its time to concentrate on your future.



She kept using the word "future".
I KNOW its my future.
But I don't want to look back in the future and regret not pursuing the matter.

My ear still hurts like fuck.
Does anyone know whether ear infections can lead to fevers?
Cos I feel as if I am having one now.
I have to fix my ear, pronto.


Anyone have any suggestions on how to cure piercing infections?




p/s: I've already taken out the stud, but the infection isn't going away. :(

=.=

I am hungry

My ear is hurting like a bitch; I hope my mum doesn't see it.

I think I lost Jesse's mp3 player. (omg I'll search for it I swear)

I can't wait to get back home.

I miss my bathroom.

I think those kid reality shows are really dumb.

I am hungry.

I wanna get that half-cardigan I saw at Zara; its been haunting me constantly.

I am worried that I may be stuck in the car for 4 hours without an mp3 player.

My nail broke again. (GAH!)

My grandmother is really cute.

I am going to miss Quadrapop.

I am still hungry.

I think that Paris Hilton's voice is really sexy. And even sexier when she sings.

Nothing In This World has been running around in my head since 4 days ago.

My ear is still hurting like a bitch.

I am doing this to kill time while waiting for my parents to arrive with my breakfast.

My eeaaaarrrrrr.... :(

Way fucking away.

I was typing this post just now and I was almost done with it already when suddenly the whole fucking screen went fucking blue and I caught a glimpse of the words "system", "shutdown" and "error" before the whole fucking thing went completely blank.

I am WAY beyond annoyed now.
I am so fucking annoyed I will kill whoever who dares to annoy me further.

The whiny post I was typing out just now was just a small recap of my thoughts and annoyance but now Im typing to release my fucking stress from feeling this ultimate surge of annoyanc and did I mention this fucking keybaord is so fucking unpleasant to type on and that fucking popups keep coming out as I typed in the other post earlier before this retard of a fucking computer shut down on me owh wait, you guys don't know because the post isn't there because it shut down. =.=

Gah fuck it I am so annoyed now.
Grrrr. I miss my computer which has no lags, no goddamned fucking popups and my keybaord which isn't stubborn like this shit old one. GRRRRR.

The heat is making everything even worse.
I can feel sweat rolling down the valley of my modest mountains every 5 minutes.
Owhkay lah, I exagerrated. Every 20 minutes.

My face constantly has a layer of sebum on the surface no matter how often I blot,
and there's sweat and oil dripping from my hair.
Thank God for the pool downstairs which helps to shorten my suffering about 2 hours when I am in the pool.
I would soak the entire day but it wouldn't be healthy to laze around in the pool for the whole trip i am here which is 4 days.

Owhkay I am out of words now I am feeling numb from all the angst and annoyance from the whole of the past 2 hours occurence which I do not care to menceritakan sekali lagi as the other post had dissapeared after the whole fucking computer shut down on me (GRRRR).

I feel like screaming and breaking someone or killing someone.

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Heh.
I missed Joe Shen's birthday dinner.
Was it fun? :(

Omg laaahhh.

Was really sleepy when I came back,
but now I am feeling wide awake thanks to all these emotions;
Fear, anxiety, and annoyance at myself.

Fear, because when I went into my bathroom to relieve my bladder,
a HUGE, muthafucking cockroach was there.
I ran out to get my Mortein Liquid and ran back to the door of my bathroom;
shut me eyes and sprayed, and sprayed, and sprayed, and sprayed, and sprayed until I felt the can become quite considerably lighter and then I stopped.
The bathroom was quiet. No sounds coming from the bloody roach,
but the sound of my own heartbeat pounding in my ears.
I've been holding my pee since then.

Anxiety; because I was so blur today, I had totally forgotten to pass Xinhui the money before she left 1U.
Daaammmnnn.. I am so fucking blur! Gosh, why didn't it occur to me that they needed money for the bloody groceries?
Anyway, its a long story. One that I do not care, or want to repeat for that matter.
Yes, and this is where the anxiety kicks in.
Will I be able to get the money to her on time?
Gah. Yeah, I will, but I'll have to trouble her mum alot.. sigh.
And also the reason why I am so thoroughly annoyed with myself for being so careless grrr.
=.= Screw myself and my blurness and my carelessness lah, seriously.
I keep chiding Machi for being blur, when I am not that alert myself. =.=

Owh yes, speaking of machi, she left for Macau this morning.
I miss her already. :(
What the hell am I gonna do for the rest of my days?

Wow thats more emotions than I thought there were.

K. Lets just pray everything goes well tomorrow morning..
G'nite.




I still need to pee.

I wear a Halo

Hahaha not.


Mmm so many things have happened in the past 2 weeks,
and I've only gotten around to blogging about them now.
From Dina's Raya Party to May's Birthday Dinner at Souled Out and everything else in between.

On a totally random and whiny note,
I am currently growing mushrooms and rotting due to the lack of money (when the fuck's my pay coming in? Grr) and laziness that has compelled me to stay home and do nothing.
And it seems that my blog is going through the rotting process too,
seeing as I haven't gotten a message on my cbox or comment section for the past 5 days.

Yeah. So lets begin.
First up,


24th October. Dina's Raya Party.


Was suppose to arrive at Dina's at 7pm when the party was suppose to start,
but ended up reaching there 3 and a half hours late, thanks to my killer working hours.
Albeit weary from standing all day, I had fun anyway.
But just as my head touched Dina's pink pillow at approximately 2am,
I fell into a deep slumber.






We celebrated Meng Leong's birthday that day, tooo.
If I'm not wrong, his real birthday was on the 25th; the day after.
Mmm what perfect timing.

So er, Happy Belated Birthday MengLeong! :)



I forgot the date. Syabil's Raya

Party.


Out of all the people that Syabil invited, I was the only girl.
It was still pretty fun. :D

We played Uno Cards.

I do NOT know what Jesse's doing.
Thian Hong's moving to AussieLand. The fucker. :(

The guys played with the PS2, I played with my camera.

Jebat. :)

Ken is going to murder me. HEEEEEEEE. :D

Ken. :)

2nd Nov. Eugeney and I

(and a little of Jane, Machi and Lixian)

at 1Utama


Did the usual stuff, visited the usual boutiques.
Bought a super slutty top from MNG. HEHE. :D

I absolutely love bringing Eugeney shopping.
He'd sit there patiently and give me the most straightforward comments,
and tell me whether what I chose is worth the money.
And occasionally he'd also supply me with a bit of loose change.. hehe.

About straightforward comments,
let me give you a snippet of my conversation with him while we were at Urban and Co. Clearance sale up to 70% OMG! *hyperventilate* But I didn't find anything I liked though.

Heh.

Yeah, so here's how it went.

I picked out a purple dress (it was only RM30! RM30 weiy! Urban&Co.!) along with some other clothes to try on.
I didn't quite like the rest, so I didn't bother showing him.
But when I showed him the purple one..


Me: It makes me look a abit pregnant, right?

Eugene gave me his usual scrutinizing look.

Machi: Hahahahahaha 3 months pregnant!

Machi started walking around protruding her tummy out and pretending she was pregnant.

Me: Three months? Really? Hmm what if I wear a belt like, here?

I said that while gesturing to the space under my bust.

Eugene: *shakes head* No.. *shakes head again*

Then he suddenly puts out four fingers at me and turns back to his Ch'an Buddhism book.

Me: Huh? Four?

Eugene: Yeah, four months.

Me: =.=

I suddenly realized he was referring to me looking like I was 4 months pregnant in that dress.

Yeah. So anyyywaaaayyyy..
I went to Nando's to meet him when I arrived.
Soul Sista Jane is working there, so go visit her when you're at 1U!
She gives wonderful service. :)

Jane doin' her thanngggg. :D

I agree with Jane that he looks like confucious.. except for the hair.
Unless Confucious used clay to style his hair during his era lah. LOL.
And to add to the whole Confucious-monk look, he was reading a Buddhist book titled Subtle Wisdom by Master Sheng-Yen.

Jane recommended this.
I don't remember what its called though haha.
Something Lemon something..

I ordered wedges; which came with a kind of mayonaise like sauce with what I assume was peri-peri powder.
Absolutely YUMMY.
Many thanks to Debra who intro-ed it to me.
I don't know why I didn't take a picture of it..
Owh yeah, guess I was too busy eating it. HEHE. :D
I am such a pig. I not only sleep like a pig, but eat like one too.

Eugene broke his slipper when at Redrummurder HAHA.
The whole thing was funny.
Afterthat I was quite tired from trying on clothes,
so we sat on one of the red cushions, the one right opposite Cherrie Lee and a thick silver pole.



Can you spot us?


Was suppose to go watch a movie with Keegan, but he forgot about it. =.=
So he just came to send me home, and he sent Eugene home, too as Eugene's road was ride behind his.



4th Nov. Machi's Birthday Dinner.


Since Machi had a craving for Lamb Chops, I suggested we go to Souled Out for her dinner.
I originally suggested Chilli's, cos I absolutely LOVE the Lamb Chops there.
But Machi wanted a change as we always go to 1U and it'd be boring if we did again.
So we went to Souled Out instead, as she's never been there before.

I'm only gonna blog about it briefly, cos Machi already blogged about it.
Click here to read Machi's posts on it. The posts are dated 5th and 6th Nov.

I won't elaborate much, the pictures will do the talking.
As they say, a picture says a thousand words.






The people who were present that night were Machi (duh), Adeline, PikYie, Yau Suen (she drove us there, many thanks to her. ), Vincent and myself.

The night started out with only the three of us; PikYie, Machi and I.
And shortly afterthat the rest joined us.

This was my first time meeting Vincent in person.
Machi introduced us, she said we'd get along very well.
Mmm yeah, I guess she was right in a way. Haha.
But he definitely is good company. :)

He didn't want to pose for me, so I kept snapping and snapping..
and then he finally gave in, hence the last picture in the bottom right.
Hehe :D





Left to Right: My lamb shank, Machi's Lamb Chop, PikYie's.. steak, I think. Or was it beef? Owh wait.. isn't beef, steak? Heh I'm confused. Anyone care to clarify?

I prefered the Lamb Chop rather than the Lamb Shank though.
The Lamb Chop is 3 bucks cheaper too...




L to R: PikYie's Strawberry Marguerita, Adeline's Fruit Punch, and Machi's normal Marguerita.


The Strawberry Marguerita tasted a little like liquid fever medicine during my first sip, but got better afterthat. Adeline's fuit punch tasted like.. fruit. HAHA. No alcohol in that one. And lastly, Machi's Marguerita. It tasted like any normal Marguerita. She didn't even finish half of it, the rest was sapu-ed by Pikyie hahahaha.

Vincent had a sprite, I had a beer, YauSuen had a..

Why I'm listing out what everyone drank is beyond me. =.=


I spent a BOMB on the food.
But it was worth it, since my Snuckums looked so satisfied. :)

We adjourned to Fondue House for desert after we were done with dinner.
We ordered the set that came with an array of fruits, marshmallows, crackers, cakes and icecream; and of course, a bowl of melted chocolated. *slurp*
All that for only RM26.90.
Plus the plain water and service charge, the bil was about RM31+.
Pretty worth it.

I love my Honey Snuckums. :) <3

Mmm I wrote more than I thought I was going to.
So tata for now. :)



P/s: I love you too lah, Stephanie Woooonnnggg. :D

I am NOT using you.

Gosh, if you think that, please don't.
I will never use you.
And if you felt that I did.. please tell me. Don't keep it to yourself.
Because if it isn't killing you, its killing me.




**




On a lighter note...

Mmmhmmm.
He's home again. :)

**




I've so many things to blog about!
But I will start tomorrow, or the day after.
My lack of sleep is starting to take its toll on me...

Void

My insides feel numb and void of all emotion.
I taste my own salty tears as I choke back a sob.

I knew what I was doing was wrong.
But yet, I could not stop myself.
I'm so attached to this feeling.. I can't let it go.

Just like how I am attached to you.
I want you to go, but yet I cling on, until you leave me by force.
I always expect too much of you, I know.
When my tears fell.. I expected you to come to me,
hold me, and tell me it was gonna be alright.


But you didn't.

I don't need you when you're not around.
But when you are.. I can't seem to get enough of you.
And what hurts me the most is how indifferent you act towards me after all we've shared.

Because to you, this isn't a matter of heart.

I didn't ask for much..






I just wanted to feel loved.
But perhaps, that was too much to ask...

Inconsiderate CUR.

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