It gets so hard I just want to give up

I want to scream and pull the hair out of my head.

It hurts so bad; I wish you would man up a bit. Just a bit.



It's time to grow up.

I don't know you at all

I was reading up a bit on my econs just now and got bored so I went blog hopping! I do that a lot when I'm bored. Or facebook profile hopping. It's entertaining to see what people write in the profiles, on their statuses, the pictures they put up, their take on all kinds of issues, or just simply talking about how their day went or how smelly their fart was (Wei Kit).

Owhkay I have just revealed to the world that I am actually very lifeless. Nevertheless!

Hahahaha and just as I typed out "I am actually very lifeless" I got a ping from Grace saying "-.- get a life ching". :(

But yeah there was a point to this post. Owhkay what the fuck I can't remember.



Right yeah nevermind I got loads indifference curve shit to read bah!

Uncertainty

I was feeling bored, so I thought I'd blog. By 'blog', I mean posting up pretty pictures of myself haha!

Well not just pictures of myself, they're actually pictures taken from some Malaysian event thing held at TigerTiger. Right so first I logged in to my photobucket, and it was being bitchy (has been since God knows how long ago aahhh sheez man photobucket, what happened? You used to be so reliable!) it would say upload complete, but my pictures would be nowhere to be found =.=. So I thought I'd use flickr instead but then I'd forgotten my yahoo ID and it was too troublesome to sign up for a new one so I resorted to using blogger to upload my pictures instead.

That night at TigerTiger was pretty alright for me, the DJ played all the mainstream songs which I like (yes, I am part of the masses) so I had a good time with the music.
Had some pre-party drinking in Grace's room with Sainsbury's vodka with Wei Kit and May and Grace so we wouldn't have to spend obscene money buying drinks in the club (yes, we are cheap that way) it was fuuun I was all happy and May Ee and Wei Kit kept eating frosties haha after we were done I had to do my makeup in a tipsy stupor, kept drawing eyeliner too thick on the bottom lid of my right eye =.= but all turned out well and off we went!

May Ee knows how to have a good time

Someone was handing out glow sticks

Wei Kit has a good time, eh? hehe. Hehehehehe.

Don't ask me, I don't know what's up with the hand signs.

Yes, it got a bit sien after awhile.
We're sorry , Hui Sien from Imperial College, for abusing your table sign.

Wore my new eyeshadow by BarryM; I have to say I am likinggg it.

And my face is becoming too round. =.=

Then again, my boyfriend calls me 'fattykins'. I may as well live up to the name.
I mish you Mr. Skinners. :(


Right so Ima go eat cereal now. Yummy frosties!



x



Oh, how I love Joe Hisaishi and the way he loves music.

I want my mommy.

It's at times like these when you really wish you had not left home.

Am currently wearing my NS pj clothes and another thick hoodie over and huddled underneath my thick duvet and am still cold.
Stupid paracetamol tablets don't seem to be working I keep feeling cold then hot then cold then hot and my head is throbbing I WANT MY MOMMY :( :( :(
I want Aiman to usap-usap my hair and kiss me on the temples of my head and tell me I'll be alright I want my dad to fuss over me and force me to go to the doctor's-


I want to go home :(


Oh and this week's Grey's episode was good on a totally different level.

Money, money, money.

Owhkay I know I keep saying that I need to get a job but I never get around to it.

SO, at the top of my to-do list tomorrow is:

WRITE A CV followed by START DROPPING THEM AT EVERY FREAKING COMPANY I CAN FIND.

Ok. I MUST do these things tomorrow.


Im going to go buy stuff to make lasagna as well hehe. YES, GRACE? :D

And today I was so bored I had decided to walk to Iceland (as in the grocery store, sort of like Tesco, but they have the CHEAPEST packed food ever LOVE IT- I'm starting to pick up Grace's taglines). I decided to walk there because after google-mapping the directions, it seemed fairly simple.

So off I went! Google maps said it'd take 30 minutes; I left at 2.45pm and arrive at 4.15pm.
Well I have no sense of direction (Aiman and Leysha can vouch for this, I've been the cause of much frustration and wasted time and fuel in the past) so I think that was why I took so long haha.

Then after I was done buying my yummy packed frozen food (all for only £1 each!) I walked to the opposite side of the road to walk back, then saw a bus stop. And on the bus route poster I saw the code for the bus that would take me to almost directly in front of my place. Haha. As Wei Kit would put it: Epic fail.

Well, it was not allll time wasted, I found out that the buses did travel in so deep, and I exercised by brisk walking! (I tell myself this so that I won't feel so bloody stupid haha =.=)

Yes so enough of wasting time, I must hit the books now. No, I know it's only been 3 weeks since uni started, 2 weeks since classes started (1st week was induction) but no, I am not being a geek. My micro 1 lecturer (as hot as he is) sent us all an email saying "In-class test on Wednesday morning, please be at (venue) at 11am sharp. Bring along with you a pencil, ruler and a non-programmable calculator."

Right and I was thinking of clubbing on Tuesday night haha!
Hence, why I need to hit the books now.


x

Edit (10.44pm)

I just reread the email my lecturer sent out and it said:


The in class test will take place on Wednesday 11th November. Please come to room JG0003, at 11.00 sharp. You are allowed to bring along a ruler, pencil, eraser and a basic calculator (only models allowed are Casio; FX83 or FX85 variant (with or without suffix).


Wednesday, 11th November.

11th November.



FUCK ME PLS.

I WANT TO EAAAT

I have this sudden urge to go to Lidl and Sainsbury's and Wilkinson's to buy lasagna ingredients (Lidl for the ground beef and tomato chunks in puree and carrots and mushrooms, Sainsbury's for the flour and unsalted butter and ground nutmeg, Wilkinson's for a baking tray =.=) and make lasagna aaahhhh I am THIS close to doing that right now but I've already overspent on grocoeries this week :(

I shall make Bangers and Mash and Lasagna next week! Yes yes I shalllllll omg excited.
Quite bored today, Babykins has went out for Jeremy's birthday so no skypy skypy, Leysha has fallen asleep (I think, she hasn't been replying me or answering skype) and everyone in my flat is out (not that I hung out with them anyway) all that's left to do is... eat. Owhkay fine I still got stuff to study but screw that I'd rather eat and catch up on Gossip Girl.

Should I go get lasagna stuff now? Should I sshooooouulllddd I?
SO TEMPTED OMGOMGOMG aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Ok I shall make lasagna during the weekend. Now, I will do my laundry. And watch Gossip Girl. And ping Grace. Oh, and finish my reading, of course.



Now which should I do first :(

AAAHHHH SHOOT ME PLS

What a freaking unproductive day. I want to kill myself aaahhhhhhhh

I PROMISE I WILL BE LESS OF A PROCRASTINATOR AND MORE OF A HARD WORKER TOMORROW IF NOT I WILL STARVE MYSELF!


No wait, starving myself isn't good enough cos then I'll be slim and that isn't exactly a punishment so umm...


I PROMISE I WILL BE LESS OF A PROCRASTINATOR AND MORE OF A HARD WORKER FOR IF NOT I WILL BE CURSED TO... I can't think of anything. =.=


Suggestions please?

If you be my boat, I'll be your sea

Hey baby.. this is a reply to your long sms to me this afternoon.


Dear Babykins,

When I found out that I actually had the chance to go to the UK to study, I called you up right away and asked you if I should do it. And the exact words you said to me were, "Do it la, you want it so much.". When I called you I was half wishing you'd tell me not to go. Wishing you'd have told me to go to Aussie instead, just so we could have a few more months together. But you told me to do what I wanted to. You supported me like I knew you would.

Well, the next few months are going to be hard, but nothing we can't handle. Every time I talk to someone from back home and they say things like, "it's gna be so long more til we get to see each other againnn" I always tell them that time will fly past really quickly, and before you know it, I'll be home already. But I won't say that to you, because every time I think of you, and seeing you and holding you again; 8 months feels like forever. And I'm sure you think the same way too.

But I know it will work out, I know that WE will work out; because first and foremost (I've probably told you this a thousand times before) you are my best friend. You are one of the people whom I hold closest to my heart, one of the very few people I actually cannot bear to lose, and cannot bear to live without. And I know that right now, you see me in the same light.

Though we may be 7800miles away from each other physically, I feel that spiritually we have never left each others side. Not even for a moment.

So on this day, the day you first kissed me in my car a year ago, I want to thank you for loving me the way you have, and for continuing to love me in the many years to come.


I won't give up; I love you.




Happy 1 year to you, too.

Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they

Well, it's been a month since I got here.

It feels like I just left home yesterday. Maybe it's because I don't have any friends yet HAHA :( But yeah I've become such a hermit I've not been trying to make friends either heh.

I've been going to Central London to hang with Grace (and May Ee) during the weekends; we've been shopping (well Grace and I have been window shopping haha) and eating yummy food.

All of which has made me very poor and which is why I won't be going again this weekend haha!


Well last week Jon came from Portsmouth for the weekend and so the few of us (Wei Kit, May, Grace and I) went around shopping eating shopping eating and talking cock.

Oooh and Jon belanja-ed May and I Angus Steakhouse heeeeeee I didn't take any pictures of food or anything whilst we were there cos I was too busy stuffing myself haha.


K random pictures I'm skyping with Aiman right now and I can't talk to him and write at the same time my multi tasking skills (or rather lack thereof) are no good.





My eyebags are huge man wtf




The guys shopped more than the girls ok they even tried on skinny jeans and apparently they look really good in them HAHA




What I love most about England: The architecture of the buildings.




Chinatown! Best place haha




In the tube on the way to somewhere




In the tube coming back from somewhere

Jon looks so cutteee righttt




Omg... Jon is TALL? I know the last time you saw him he was short as ever but he had a sudden growth spurt and now he is tall!




Oh haha he's not tall! He's just getting in touch with his foxy feminine side by wearing May Ee's 7 inch heels haha.






May Ee was going to wear her heels out but decided against it since she would be towering over him. I was like "aiyaaa nothing one laaa" but after she put them on and stood beside him, I finally understood what she meant. Hahahahhaa poor Jon :)




Trafalgar Square




Double decker bus




Duno what building this is haha



Balloons in the sky!




ORGASMIC DUCK RICE. SRSLY.

If you people are in malaysia pls go to Tmn Paramount and eat Sunrise duck rice pls it is TEH BOMB and is only about RM12 each ok I paid £5 that's like RM30 for this dish. But money well spent, I don't regret it at all.
Grace said I ate with such relish that even she, a non-meat person, wanted to try it too. She then commenced taking ugly pictures of me while I was eating hahaha.




Ahhhhhhh thinking about it makes my mouth fill with saliva...



The best part of the duck, the skiiinnn oooooommmgggggg




AAHHHH k you know what I am going to Grace's place again this weekend I must have this duck rice agaaiiin. Also cos Im craving for nasi lemak sigh.



Ah right that's all for this post I need to go catch up on some reading now before I get reaaallllyyy left behind. =/


Mmmm potatoes.

I like Taylor Swift.

I am sleepy. I don't know why I'm sleepy.

I don't know why the right side of my jaw is sore. I have not been kissing anybody or chewing anything tough, but right now I can't open my mouth to it's usual width and it is annoying. =.=

I am blogging because I am bored waiting for Aiman to finish playing stupid CS and for my PurpleBerry desktop application to finish installing.

I have what I think is a muscle ache at the back of my left knee.

I think it's because of shopping for hours on both Saturday and Sunday on Oxford and Regent Street. The muscle ache is even crappier than it would be because I spent hours window shopping, not actually shopping.

I bought myself a coat from Zara, because I need a coat. I really wanted that lace top from H&M, that pair of faded grey skinnies from Zara, and sheer hosiery from TopShop.

My writing skills suck, I start each sentence with an "I". But right now I'm just too sleepy to even try and improve my writing skills. Or rather, lack thereof.


Oh, and all the shoes in Zara as well.

DID YOU KNOW that those pretty pretty Zara shoes you see in 1U or Midvalley or BV or whatever mall in Malaysia are only £30????

In Ringgit that's like RM180 ONLY OK?

The usual pair of Zara Woman shoes cost RM400+. I wanted to cry. I wanted to spend my entire years allowance and just buying every freaking pair in my size from both the Zara stores in Oxford St.

But I didn't even buy one pair, because I know how hard my parents have worked for me to come here- so I promised myself that with my first part time job salary, I will buy myself a pair of those shoes. And a printer.

Wait a sec I need to restart my pc.

BIG HUGGEERSS

I think you should know by now how much I love you-

I saw you for the first time in three weeks, and I cried.







I love you.