Longing and yearning

Such a fine line between love and hate.

I don't even know why I bothered.

Wait... I do. I just wish he did too.



Goodnight.... And I love you.

My boyfriend has sexy sexy hair

Right so I couldn't think of a title and thus I wrote what was foremost on my mind.

The foremost thing on my mind should be studying and salvaging my A levels, but no.

Instead, I am thinking of my boyfriend's hair.


It may be very very sexy hair, curling all over his face and all, but I SHOULD BE THINKING OF MY FUTURE!

Was talking to May just now and I told her that I need my motivation to study.

And she replied me simply, "er your future depends on it?"


Yes. These grades determine which uni I'll get into. The start of my future.


SO WHY AREN'T I MOTIVATED?

Can someone correct that sentence for me? It sounds wrong...



x



Staying in denial for a long time and having it blow up in my face at the end is what I am most good at, besides making a total fool of myself in public areas (omg.... so many bad memories), and this is the being-in-denial part. So I shall push it to the back of my mind and blog about something fun!

But first, May's moral class is having this Charity Walk thing, which you all should attend!

This Charity Walk is for Harvest Center Underprivileged Children. Each participant donates RM10 (come on laaaaa what's RM10!) and gets a free shirt.

They are targetting 1000 participants, so HELP OUT PLS THANKS.


I'm not attending because it's a few days to my exam =.= So I have a valid excuse.

But yes, details are as follows:

Host:
Moral Studies student of Sunway University College

Type:
Sports - Sporting Event

Network:
Malaysia

Date:
Saturday, May 30, 2009

Time:
7:00am - 1:00pm

Location:
Field of Sunway University College

Street:
No.5, Jalan University, Bandar Sunway
City/Town:
Petaling Jaya, Malaysia

Phone:
0176633076
Email:
anilim@hotmail.com

I got that from facebook, check it out HERE.


Coincidentally, my mom sent me an email with this video that is somewhat related to this.... watch it.



x



Now back to my boring life. Haha.
There's this place in college where I like to sit when I'm emo or bored and where my Indian friends like to go and smoke we call it The Benches because it's this small place with a few benches almost hidden behind the tall trees and plants places there it's sort of like a little shaded area with wind constantly blowing a place to get away from the chaos of Jalan Dungun.







Jas was carrying The Sun, and when he left for class Ley started making paper hats... and a sword and a gun. HAHA.










Mastermind doing her thing






Then came Jayesh!











I... did take pictures in the hat and bearing the sword, but the pictures were obscene and so to avoid Aiman biting my head off, I shan't post it up.


Right owhkay I have delayed studying much too long.... too long indeed.


Til the next time I find the need to blog; au revoir.



Owh right,







One of the simple things in life I love the most- the sky, at twilight.

LIFE SUCKS

Life suck fact 1:

Life sucks because it is drizzling lightly outside, the perfect weather for sleeping in and relaxing.... and I have to fucking go to college because I have class at 8am.

So yes, life sucks.

All I wanna do is find a way back into love...

My chest feels as if I have 4 sandbags attached to each corner.

I walk around feeling like I'm 7300kgs, and not just 73kgs.


You are the reason that I breathe, you are the reason that I still believe


I was eating chicken rice with siu yoke and I don't know if it was just in my mind or what, but it was tasteless.

Every song on the radio made me sad. I kept changing the channels, from 1 to 2 to 3 to 4 to 5 to 6.
And then back again. Finally I gave up and just turned it off.


Oh my beloved...


I just banged my keyboard again because the 'n' wasn't working. I hit it so hard my hand hurts like balls.

But the stabbing feeling in my stomach and chest hurts so much more.

I painted my nails olive green today, and I wanted to tell you how pretty it was.

I'm not going to say I'm sorry anymore, because I know the word has become a bit stale.


Being with you, is so dysfunctional. I really shouldn't miss you, but I can't let you go....


I don't know what to do, I don't want the next time we talk to end up like that again.

But then again, I don't think I even want to talk, because I'm so afraid we'll end up fighting again. I don't even know which one of us instigated the last one...


I don't live on the moon, drink martinis in the afternoon


Felt like just yesterday we were dancing to this song in each others arms in my room.

I know you tried really hard to make things better, and I know that I wasn't exactly helping.... every thing I said just made things worst.

But... I love you, and I hope we work this out soon. This bloody ache is killing me.



Oh my beloved.

love glue gun

I was at the Cyberfusion 2009 event thing at Cyberjaya last weekend.


Pictures, now!









They decided to extend it to 40 hours




Me, waiting for Aiman




I went and bought him the shirt which says "I survived the longest lan party ever"
Hehe damn good girlfriend right hehe






Spot the Aiman!

Pssst. Right in the middle, with the grey hoodie and white Siberia whatever headset haha.




The 40th hour finally came






Altogether 219 people played for 40 hours, I think.




I helped him carry his stuff out to the caarr




This is how a person looks like after gaming for 40hours straight with no sleep.


And today my baby is sick :(

Poor boy had diarrhea, headache and a feveeerrr.

Think it's the 40 hours of non-stop gaming coupled with unhealthy food and minimal water =/


I on the other hand woke up sneezing today and continued sneezing till the evening =.=

Oooh ooh and I watched the movie He's Just Not That Into You today and I LOVED it.
So cliche, but I totally bought it HAHA.


I think that's what being in love (see, another cliche tagline) does to you.
Or does it happen to every girl?

I'm hungry.

So I took a cab to 1U, then took a bus to putrajaya sentral where I had to take another bus to MMU.

Once at MMU, I had to walk up a freaking long hill.

For that, I don't feel bad for skipping gym this morning. =.=

Then when I got here, Bubu tells me they're extending the thing to 40 hours instead of us 38 hours.

So... Here I am, with 2 hours to fill.

And I'm sulking. Because I hate waiting.

Blah fine. I'll stop sulking. Later. :p

Cyberfusion 2009

I drove all the way to Cyberjaya yesterday to see my babykins.

The fella insisted on joining the longest lan party (in the world, I think; since there's Guiness World Book of Records involved) where 250 participants would have to stay up for 38hours playing games.

I didn't know how he was going to tahan 38hours, but last I spoke to him (a few minutes ago) he is still holding on. Only 4 more hours to go!

So yes, I prepared a care-pack and brought it there for him. ^^

We (Leysha and I) got lost inside Cyberjaya for a bit, but no worries! We found our way haha.

Btw, google maps is almost completely useless when used in Malaysia, because sign boards here are so fucking confusing. =.=


Will be heading there again to take him home later. I can't wait :( I know my poor baby is really really tired :(

Will post up pictures soon ^^


Woke up at 8.30am today... and yes, I should've went to the gym. But I couldn't get my lazy arse up and so here I am, having bacon and eggs with toast and tea for breakfast HAHA.


Ooooh pie!

I go a'walkin' after midnight, out in moonlight just like we used to do

Yes hello it has been a million years.

I know I've been MIA, but then again, there was no action. Well none besides college and Aiman lah.
Which means there has been none. HAHA.

But I shall update for the sake of updating, before I completely lose the whole blogging thing.


So er.... today I went to the gym?

Right. Today I had to apply the saying 'we must learn to laugh at ourselves'. Because I have very bad body coordination.

Right so this morning I thought to myself, 'let's not waste mummy's money and make full use of that gym.'
I use a lot of the equipment and the steam room (omg LOVE that place) and the sauna, but have never actually attended any of the classes, so I thought 'hmmm why not go join one today, since working out by myself using the equipment with only my thoughts for company gets kinda boring and every time I walk pass that place the people inside look like their having so much fun jumping around to the loud music and stuff.' wow what a long thought HAHA!


So I went to join the Body Step class. I chose that one because my coworker told me that was her favorite class.

Well... I shall not say much about how it went because I do not want to relive that partially horrible and partially embarrassing memory.

Let's just say that the teacher (is that what you call the guy who guides the class?) kept saying "The girl in the I<3NY shirt, watch the lady in the front and follow her" (this lady was like 50+ and she was doing the moves like a fucking pro whilst I was fumbling the whole way through =.= and she looks like May Ee's aunty)

and "I<3NY look here look here LISTEN TO ME HEY HERE HERE" (I can't fucking watch the lady in front, listen to you and try to get the moves right all at once laaaa OK??)

and "I<3NY you're making me dislike New York... get the next one right and I may just like New York again" (at this point I was just covering my face)


The only good thing I got out of the whole class was that it was a good workout. Sweat balls. Damn 7 tired also.

But I think I shall just try something that doesn't require much body coordination the next time ha ha...


Err... k I shall post on Valentine's Day.
Yes I know Valentine's Day was like 2 months ago, but I like la ok.


K photobucket doesn't wanna upload my photos so we'll just skip that. I'll back track if I remember to later on.



Owh yes, I followed Aiman to go play CS.
Wanted to act good girlfriend, which I did.
But I was fucking bored weiiy.

Hence the pictures:






AHAHAH




Eih bubu your iPhoen camera quite suck right? HEHEHEHEHE



Does anyone wanna guess how much those headphones cost?
The brand is.. er... siberia something something. HAHAHA.




GeeruFf <3 Chingy




Baby in action








Owhkay another reason why the iPhone sucks: I have tried rotating those pictures like 2394823 times, and after I'm done it just goes back to the way it was.
Which answers your question of why the pictures are all not upright.

And the main reason why the iPhone sucks: I do not own one. HAHAHAHHA.



Mmm k now let's fast forward to errr 4 days ago. Went to watch this Malaysian Production (a Yasmin Ahmad film) called Talentime.
If I'm not wrong this fellar who's in our school now acts in it.





The main actor is very cute ^^.


Well, my take on the movie is that there's too many story lines jumbled into one movie, and some of the lines came off as trying hard to be funny (e.g. Did she say 'arse'? Well that used to be my favorite word. My favorite word now is 'dick' -- wtf la?) and some of the acting is quite bad. Haha.

But I enjoyed the music, Bubu likes the song 'Ore Piya' (kept singing it in the car on the way home) and my favorite line was 'life is like a black man's left ball (testicle); it's not right and it's not fair.' BAHAHA!







He grabbed my phone and took these pictures of himself. I SWEAR!




Mushroom Chicken cheese baked rice.
Of course, Kimgary's is better hehe.






Now let's rewiiiinndd to Valentine's Day.

We had dinner in Sakae Sushi, went to KLIA to see Patrick off, and then went to see planes land!
It was quite cool haha. Took a lot of videos, but I'm lazy to upload.





What's Valentine's Day without flowers, yes?










and yummy foood?




Cuppacakes!




My Mr. Henskem




Yes I have a super big hamtaro on my bed.



And yesterday we went to Malacca!
Aiman had some translating thing to do there so we went on a road trip.

It got quite stressful at some parts because I'm not good with directions, and he is an impatient person.

But hmm.. I would say I quite enjoyed myself.
I want to go baccckkkk I wanna see museums and eat more chicken rice balls and asam pedas!






Been very lazy to put on make up these days.




omg my finger ==






I love looking at old architecture..




BUBUKINNSSS!




He kept walking in front of the camera when I was trying to take pictures =.=






On the way to MMU!



I was so hyped up over chicken rice balls cos everytime I mentioned that I was going to Malacca the person listening would always say something like "to do what? eat chicken rice balls?" or "chicken rice balls?" or "buy chicken rice balls for me?"

So I damn excited over the chicken rice balls la.

Then when we went to yumcha with Nick he said "chicken rice balls SUCK la I go chicken rice balls shop I order normal chicken rice"

I was quite sore la haha. :(


But Ihad them for breakfast this morning and they were YUMMYY!
I loike la. I want eat again, Bubuuuuuu!


Ah k I think that's enough for a proper update.
Time to talk to my baby on the phone heeee TATA!


And if y'all are thinking "what the fuck damn fucking boring weiy all she EVER talks about it Aiman Aiman Aiman bubukins babykins curlykins BLAH"

Well, I did warm you waaayyyy at the top of the post that quote, "I know I've been MIA, but then again, there was no action. Well none besides college and Aiman lah."

See, college and Aiman. And as I've mentioned before, all I ever do in college is go for class, eat, and talk nonsense to Leysha.

So I've only Aiman to talk about.


Which to me... isn't sad at all. <3