If you've got pain in your heart... why don't you share it with me..

Thank you, Aimankins.


x


I <3 COW

BAHAHAHAHHA love you laaa kawan India!

CAN YOU PUT THE PAST AWAY WISH YOU WOULD STEP BACK FROM THAT LEDGE MY FRIEND

The title is in caps because I am singing this song at the top of my lungs at Terry's place.
I think the Kian Huat aunty is going to come upstairs and ask me what's going on soon HAHA.

Hmmm I should blog. Since there is now wi-fi at Terry's place, and at certain hours I do have some free time. Just SOME. You know? Like a little. (just in case, Terry - who is the boss of me, finds my blog hahaha though I doubt so hehe)

Alright, soon! And I shall change this blogskin as well getting a bit boring. Actually no Im not bored of it cos I haven't come to my own blog in a long long while HAHAHA it's like I've been evading life working 2 jobs and trying to have a social life (I use the word 'try' because right now I'm kind of like a hermit) really doesn't give you much time to sit down and think because all the other free time I have when Im not working or going out with friends or hanging out with Aiman is used for sleeping and I suppose when I say I'm 'evading life' I suppose I've been putting off thinking about the more important things like the future I've just been focusing on right now like getting a new phone cos I lost my old one =.= and my camera has finally spoiled so I have nothing to take pictures with anymore and I suppose it's time I sat down and thought about what Im going to do with my life instead of typing out all this crap when I should be working haha.




I shall blog tomorrow. And go on a diet. And exercise more. And stop complaining.

Fate intervenes

I have noticed that I seem to have lost the need to constantly update my blog.

The past few months, I have been finding it difficult to describe what I've been feeling in words.... Every time I click 'Create Post', more often than not I always press the X button on the top right hand corner after typing out a few lines.

Maybe it's because I'm growing up. This blog is a part of my young naivete, a part of me which I had just left behind recently.

So I suppose... the time has come to really let go.


Goodbye, dear blog. I have enjoyed recording my memories with you.

Perhaps the occasional post, once in awhile.




BAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA Owhkay fine that was crap. The only reason I'm not updating is because I work 2 jobs now and that I am fucking LAZY.

I wish you would step off from that ledge, my friend

I am so thankful for cough mixture.

I will always love you

Dear Aiman 'Bubukins/Bestie' Yusra,


I am sorry for all the fights we've been having the past few days, and I want to thank you for coming back each and every time, even if the last one took you longer to return.

I keep getting sensitive about small things, I think, because at the back of my mind I keep thinking about how I may have to leave soon. Leave my home behind, leave the rest of my childhood behind, but mostly leave you behind.

But I believe, that after being best friends for 2 years, and then a couple which shares everything with each other for the past 9 months; we'll hold on throughout the 9 months a year when we are apart. We'll hold on even with the distance separating us.

So... with this, I'm REALLY going to stop doubting whether we'll be able to do this, or whether I want to do this.

Because I'm going to screw the odds and go for it, for better or for worse.

Because right now, you are everything to me as well.



I love you.


x


Now a little ranting:


I've been feeling like fucking jealous for fucks man the past few days WHAT THE FUCK I mean I was never really jealous of her at all before and now I am I now feel really stupid for being jealous of the other person when this person whom I'm jealous of now has had a real long history with him and I know so do I but I I I I I don't know why I feel like that all of a sudden and no it's not like Im going to do anything I just feel like... like he may just... What the fuck. Jealousy is an evil, evil thing.

Routine

AAAHHHHHHH I'M SOOOOO LAZZZYYY TOOOO GO TOOOO WOOOOOORRRRKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK








Proper updates soon enough.