Beneath This Façade: April 2006

Friday, April 28, 2006

This House Would Ban Violent Video Games.

OMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFG.
ITS TOMORROW.
First round of the HELP University College 4th Annual Debate.
I'M SO NERVOUS.
I just KNOW that Ima screw up somehow.
I just hope that I won't screw up too bad.

I'm against St. Micheal's Institution aka Bryan's school tomorrow.
I don't wanna lose in the first rouuunnddddd. :(
I'm so nervous!

What if I forget my speech?
What if I can't answer the POI's?
What if I don't rebutt appropriately?
What if I say something like "Shit" or "fuck" into the microphone like I did last year?
What if I.. what if.. what if.. omfg WHAT IF??

Freaking out freeakin out.

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So anyway,
the last two days have been the epitome of the word "stress".
I've been sooo busy with my debate dicussion sessions and I.U. practices,
I've barely had anytime to think about anything else.

And yeaa, I didn't get a post in the new BOD for DJ's Leo club,
so please, stop asking me if I did, or what post did I get.
My ego is bruised. :(
But at least Joanne P. got president.
I'm reaaaalllyyyy proud of herrr!
From now one, she will be known as Joanne Connolisa Rice Pereirra.
Owh well, I'll still come for Leo meetings. :)

Yesterday morning, as I was on the way to school,
I saw a rainbow. A very pretty one, too.
My mum then said to me, "Girl, today is gonna be a good day for you."
HELL. She was SO wrong.
Yesterday was probably the worst day in the whole year so far.
I just cracked under all the stress and pressure.

First I was so anxious to hear the new BOD announcement,
and a lil dissapointed when I didn't get anything;
then I went back to the library for debate discussions again,
and when I asked to leave for I.U. practice,
I got scolded by Pn. Koh, and she gave me the whole commitment speech.
Then finally when I was allowed to leave,
I went to look for May Ee to tell her I was sorry I skipped the practice.
When I finally found her,
She gave me her why-didn't-you-come-for-practice look,
and after I told her that I had to go home,
she gave me her WHAY?? look.
And got scolded by MayMay also. :(

Then after waiting a couple of minuts which felt like a couple of hours for my transporter to come,
I finally reached my home sweet home.
Then just as I open the door,
my dad come and asks me to sit down so that we could have the about-my-future talk.

When it all finally ended, I went upstairs and cried.
I don't know for what really, I just needed to cry.
Release abit of stress.
I was still pretty wrecked afterthat, but forced myself to tuition.

I notice that I naturally put on a facade when I'm in crouds.
My smiley face and whacky attitude just naturally come out,
even when I'm feeling like a whole load of SHIT inside.
And yesterday, when I smiled, it really really hurt.
I came home exhausted as ever, spiritually.
I msged OldMan, cos he normally understands me and will listen to me.
But instead, this time all he did was chide me for complaining so much.
Thats all he seems to do nowadays.
Chide me for complaining.
Do I really complain that much?

Well, to cut it all short,
I told him how angry and hurt I was that he wouldn't listen to me anymore.

And that was that.
I cried again before I slept,
resulting in swollen eyes this morning.
Sigh.
I sure hope and pray things will get better.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Alterna

So many things happening this week.
There's I.U. practices for modelling, (yes, I'm in modelling despite my humongous size)
Debate discussion meetings on the motion,
'This House Would Ban Violent Video Games'
for the HELP U College 4th Annual Debate,
The debate competition 1st round on Saturday against SMI,
and IF we get through, the 2nd round on Sunday.
And if we do the debate on Sunday. I may be late for I.U.

Busybusybusy.

Its weird, cos I know the 1st speaker from SMI.
Bryan remember? I mentioned him in my previous posts.
Sigh. I'm damned nervous. : (

For modelling, I got my cloth from Melissa today.
Steph, Dina and I got the last 3 ugliest colours cos everyone took the nicenice ones already.
But mine was still owhkay lahh,
I left Steph with this Indian-ish yellow,
and Dina a very funny kind of green.
Hehe Im so mean!
But still, when we chose those were the only ones left.

All this stress, lack of water and overdose on chocolate easter eggs
have given me a HUGE, yellow VOLCANO right under my right nostril.
Yes. A damned pimple. =/
Me no likey pimples.
In fact. Me hatey pimples.
Arghhh.
I can't even rub my nose now,
cos it'll hurt and not to mention make it worst.
So annoying! >= (

I didn't get the modelling partner I wanted,
but heck he isn't even modelling.
Hahhahahha. Owh well. :)

Everything is clashing with one another.
Debate discussions and I.U. practices.
24 hours a day just isn't enough.
And their gonna announce the new BOD's tomorrow!
I'm so nervous about that too.
I'm not afraid if I lose the post,
but I am afraid that I'll be very dissapointed.
My life is filled with dissapointments, and I absolutely HATE them.
I hate the sinking feeling of failure and rejection.
Sigh. Im scared.

Owh well. Nothing I can do about it now.
Que Sera Sera.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

You're a God.

Its 9 something in the morning now,
and I'm suppose to be going to Tropicana for I.U. practice.
I don't know how the hell to get there.
My mum's playing golf.
I tried sms-ing Beaver last night, but he didn't reply.
I sms-ed Dina this morning, she didn't reply. Probably still sleeping.

Omfg I think Ima have to take a cab.
There goes the last of my money...
Sigh.

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Edit

Note: Warning. Picture overload!

I got invited to WeiGuan's Sweet 16 party last night.
It was pretty fun, overall. Owhkaylah, you know? :)

I went with Debra, Khei Sze and YinMun; Debra's mom sent us.
Went over to Debra's at about 6:30pm.

Owh yea, I'd like to thank Debra for sharing her camera with me last night.
Without her, this post wudnt be happening.
Everybody say thanks to Debra yea. :)
I love you Deb. <3

Owhkay. Lets continue.
After reaching Debra's house I had to makeup and stuff,
and suddenly I realized something very important.
I had forgotten to bring WeiGuan's birthday present.
=.=
I got her some bodyshop goodies, and forgotten to bring them.
I am so MCC. (Mong Cha Cha)
Luckily Debra had a backup.

I. KheiKhei and YinMun.

My hair is covering my eyes so much so I look like a dog.
Damnn. Need to trim my fringe.

After 15 minutes of going round in circles,
after a few, "Eih?? Where are we?"
and another few, "Have we passed here before?"
We finally reached WeiGuan's doorstep.

WeiGuan's house.
When we reached it was actually still bright, but then I had forgotten to take a picture. Bythe time I remembered it was already dark.

Jane and YinMun lookin' gooood. ;)

Debra and I
We were sesat-ed people waiting to be fed.

Jane. Debra and I.
Sesat-ed, hungry people.

I look like a retard. Hunger does that to me.

But just as we finished taking our photo, WeiGuan announced that we could start eating.
THANK GOD!

I give the food last night a 7/10.
I enjoyed the prawns and the fish the most.
Yummy yummy. =D

Mmmm. Fish.
I eat very gelojoh-ly.

More graceful eaters.

They say that poor people eat very fast.
And I live up to that phrase.
So after eating, I began snapping with Deb's cam.

WeiKit looks sooooo happy.

The food table.

I. Birthday Girl and Debra.

L-R: Siang with WeiGuan's birthday balloon. MLeong. Bobo. Cheang Ee. Sarah (Vincent's chiq). Thian Hong. SarahChan. WaiHong.

Now for the couples:

Couple #1: Dina and WeiKit.
So, er.. loving, yea?

Couple #2: YongMeng and Stephie.
Sweetness.

Couple #3: Sarah and WaiHong
Cuuuute. :)

Couple #4: Sarah and Vincent
They look so happy. :)

WeiGuan had this Sweet Sixteen sign,
so I took a picture of her and her girlfriends along with it.
Note: Chiqa alert!

Nice girl #1. Birthday Girl. Sarah. Joanna.
Damnn. I feel so bad! I didn't get to know her name.

I'm shy, owhkay!
Um. if you're reading this Nice Girl #1, please tell me your name. :)
I was too chicken to intro myself.
Omfg I sound like a guy wanting to get to know a girl.

Then we decided that we DJ-ian's anted a group photo.
So Debra helped us. :)

Er.. everyone wasn't ready.
Again again!

Ah. Better, much better.

Afterthat, we adjourned into the living room.
Some of the Aiya Crew guys started shuffling and stuff, so we watched.
Fyi, the Aiya Crew consist of 6 guys.
Go to www.aiyacrew.blogspot.com to find out more about them if you like.

Shuffleshuffle.

Then we played a game.
It was pretty fun.
It goes like this.
A girl has to sit on a guy's lap, and say, "Baby if you love me, would you please smile."
Then the guy would have to say in return, "Baby I love you, but I just can't smile.", without smiling or bursting into laughter (or hysterics).
Sounds easy, no?
No, it isn't easy. Unless you're Ong Khy Li.
I swear he is a good actor.

Sarah and Khy Li arranging the seating.

We started of with Jee and JenWae,
because you know lah,
everyone shy shy and alllll.

Siew Haur was so funny.
We all thought Philip wasn't gonna smile, until Siew Haur waiileeedd reallllyy loudly,
"WHYYYYY??"

The boys got abit excited.

Afterthat, we watched YongMing do his stuff.
Seriously weih, that dude can shake better than many chiqs.
Didn't take pictures, I was too mesmerized by his ass.
The girls were damned good too.
I don't know their names.. once again,
If you are the girl(s) I am talking about, please tell me your name. :)

Then finally, it was time to cut the cake!