Innocence is what I've got

Stacey's right, you'll get angry at me for anything and everything, because you're just angry at me in general.

Sam's right, I should go completely cold turkey. No more communication for a stretched period of time.

This needs to stop, crying over you. Crying over you on my birthday, on Valentine's Day.

We need to hurt separately, because we can't hurt together anymore. As sad as that sounds, it's true.

I'm going to move on now. You should too.

I have nothing left to say

I know I've said this so many times before; but I sometimes wish things didn't turn out the way they did.

I sometimes wish my parents didn't have enough money to send me overseas, that way I would've not went away.

I sometimes wish you had come with me when you said you would, but you couldn't... and deep inside, I know that. It was just easier to put the blame on you rather than admitting that I'm not strong enough.

I sometimes wish I were stupid enough to choose love and not.... not what I chose instead.

I want to scream and cry at the same time and I miss you I miss you I MISS YOU and we're not talking and I know it's for the best heck I even encouraged it SO WHY AM I FEELING THIS WAY I

The Scientist

I need to write something down.

There are so many thoughts going around in my head... nobody said it was easy

I think about you all the time. No, not when I'm with this other guy.... but when he's gone, I sometimes find myself here all alone. Alone with you.

He fills my days... and even fills my heart a little. He takes care of me, he's.... here.

I am happy. I am.

Or at least I'd like to think that I am.