I am afraid.

Was at 1U with Leysh yesterday.
We went to watch the movie 21, out of pure boredom; and also cos I've seen everything else that's worth watching already anyway.






My favorite Indian friend




My face is so ROUND




I is a happy fat girl carbonara ME LIKEY






Such a pretty dress, yes? RM569 (or something like that lah).
And you see that grey top hanging there? I WANT :( RM48 sigh.



x



Dina's leaving in a few days; and to be honest, I am afraid.
I have been afraid since... since I heard about it I guess.

I've always had problems with letting go. And Dina is someone whom I've been with since primary school, we have so many memories together.
I know that sooner or later we're all going go to our separate ways; I just didn't think it this soon.

Which is why I haven't been asking you out the past month, because I am afraid; because I know it will be one of our last times together as kids... the next time we meet, we're probably grown up already. Adults.
I know that reason is kind of stupid, but I don't know how to put what I'm feeling into proper phrases.
Although we've pretty much naturally grown apart through the years; in my mind and in my heart,

you have always been the Fadina whose name I wrote on the window sill with a yellow colour pencil,
the Fardina whom I co-created Kampung Naked Beach with,
the Dina who let me cry on her shoulder when Bear left me,
the Dina whom I bitched about people with,
the Dina who showed me the insides of her mouth while chewing on leftover potato wedges from Steph's 15th birthday party,
the Dina whom I spent hours talking bullshit with on the phone,
the Dina whom I lifted with Stephanie and Yien during Dynamitez 2005,
And the Dina who was there for me through thick and thin for the most of my living years.



So.. Dina, I'm sorry I've been such a coward.
These last few days.. I will make it up to you.